Night Serenity # Blessed Life

It's 2am and everything is silent. I stayed up because I slept way too much in the evening and I am fully awake now. Also I have to study for tomorrow's Econs test, and I've been rewriting notes as revision. It's all pretty straightforward but I'm a little worried I might forget something.

I'm listening to soft piano music as I do my things because it's really calming. I usually prefer silence, but occasionally a little music keeps me going. My housemates are all still awake as usual. I'm the one being unusual here.

I guess I love the night to some extent. It can get quite cold for me, so I don't like it when I'm feeling chills. But I like the quiet and darkness, so it's okay. I like evenings better, but nights will do too. I love being completely awake at night, but usually this comes with the cost of being very sleepy the next morning, so if I can't sleep in, I can't stay up.

I feel serene at night because everything is just so quiet and unobstrusive. You know how in the day all the huzz and buzz of people around and they just keep getting in your way? I'm not antisocial, but I like being alone with myself, and there's just so much social interaction to do all the time, and if you don't do them, people think you don't like them/antisocial/crazy. Social norms.

But at night everyone is asleep and I can finally be with myself again, doing the things I love like blogging and listening to piano music at the same time. Being in the IB isn't easy and I post much less often now, but having this luxury once in a while is refreshing, even for a moment. You tend to stop and feel content about life when you're just so perfectly happy.

And because of being happy, I feel thankful. I feel blessed to have people who actually care about me here. Sometimes I'm way too individualistic for my own good, and I don't really care about many people because a lot of them are fakes, and I just can't bring myself to socialise and interact with them even though it might potentially elevate my status or something. Thus sometimes I feel isolated because I'm not "in the gang", but then I remind myself that I choose not to, so there's no one to blame.

But I'm grateful that even though I don't like networking and too much human interaction, I have friends, best friends here who would look after me without asking much in return. I don't have many best friends, but I am thankful for the few who actually made it to the best friends circle. And I'm really happy that so many other people have been kind to me and accept me for who I really am and do not force me to conform.

Life is simple. Love people who love you, and forgive those who hate you or couldn't see the beauty in you. Live for yourself, live for the beauty in life. Whatever happens, you're still alive, and you can make a difference in yourself. Those who matters don't mind, and those who mind, well they don't matter much, do they? :)

I should catch some sleep now or I'll fail my test tomorrow. Here's a shoutout to all my best friends out there: you know who you are, I love you guys and you mean a lot to me! <3

Good night people of the world. :)