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Friday, February 28, 2014

The Outsider/The Stranger by Albert Camus - Book Review



I'll be frank. It is not a happy story.

But if I am taking the time to post a review on it, you can be sure I think very highly of this book.
And no, I don't like sad stories that make me cry. But I think this book deserves a read because it is thought-provoking long after I have finished the book.

Of course, I had to read it as it is one of the prescribed works for my IB English Literature class.

To start off, the thin volume is authored by Albert Camus, an Algerian writer and a Nobel Prize winner for Literature. His books are originally in French. My copy of The Outsider was translated by a Joseph Lorendo. Here one must take a moment to ponder: is the reaction toward the story due to the words and sentence structures that elicit the feelings from the readers, or is it due to the plot and the characters in general? Does the content actually matter more than the way and medium in which it is presented?

I say both.
Granted, Camus is still the author of the novel, he did not pass the plot idea to Lorendo and make him write it. However, Lorendo must have, during the process of translation, infuse some of his ideas and writing techniques into it. But then when the effect it created is so positively profound in the reader, is there any need to debate on who owns the effect? No.

Anyway the novel starts off deceivingly boring enough. We are introduced to the protagonist in a most unsightly manner: the death of his mother. But this is essential, for we are quickly shown the indifference-to-the-world side of Meursault. The opening line "Mother has died today. Or yesterday. I do not know" will have at once capture the reader's attention and, at the very least, gotten their confusion or mild surprise. His mother has died. Does he not care enough to know when?

The plot continues on in a monotonous fashion: he goes to his mother's funeral without crying even once, returns home feeling not grief but annoyance, passes his weekends with Marie and by himself. We are also introduced to his workplace, his neighbours and their lives, all through the protagonist's close, and perhaps cold, observation. At this point, we can see that Meursault is not retarded; in fact he is intelligent and precise in all his detailed observations. However, I must say I felt a bit creeped out by him initially because he seem to lack feelings. He could probably tell you what the clouds look like yesterday morning, but he will not be able to answer how he feels about his mother's death. Yes, it is indeed unfortunate, he will say. But it is only natural for her to die, so why should I cry?


The plot runs on where his neighbour Raymond asked him to write a letter to his mistress to make her feel bad, and even asked him about his opinion on his plan to abuse her. Afterwards when the Arab brother of Raymond's mistress and his friends followed Raymond, Meursault and the others to where they were holidaying, Meursault shot the mistress' brother with Raymond's gun, partly because he was too hot and was trying to get out of the sun, and partly because the Arab drew his knife when Meursault stepped forward. Meursault was then brought in by the police and questioned, but he was unable to explain what motives he had for killing; he didn't have any at all. The police deemed him to be cold-blooded and dangerous, and as he didn't want to cooperate with either the magistrate or the lawyer, he was sent to prison for some months before his trial.

This was probably the climax of the story, but I would think that there are two climaxes in the story, and this is the first one. Meursault kept rationalising his actions with "it was only natural" or "naturally", and he could not understand at all why other people should feel the way he didn't. He was truthful when he answered the magistrate and the lawyer, but they were either irritated or worried. Hence he is deemed a dangerous psychopath and put into prison to await his trial.

In the end, Meursault did not repent, but developed a kind of enlightenment in prison, after his trial (which focuses mostly on how he did not show any feelings at his mother's death instead of the murder). The chaplain visited him even though he did not want to see him, and the chaplain's patronising attitude made him fly into a rage and poured out his feelings. Here, the second climax is seen; the change in Meursault is drastic. We get to see his real thoughts at last when there is nothing else around him to distract him from. He finally looks inside and observe himself instead of his surroundings. And finally, he is released from his fear of the death that will be upon him.

The story is sad, with a lingering cliffhanger at the ending. We do not witness his execution, but we stopped following him during his last few moments on earth, in this society that does not understand him. Is he a culprit or a victim of himself? Camus' afterword (which was the preface in the original French version), referred to Meursault as the man who does not play the game because he does not lie, and he prefers to be truthful about himself and his feelings. Hence he is viewed as a dangerous outsider, someone who does not conform to the society just because he refuses to say more than what he feels. He is executed primarily because he does not show feelings at his mother's funeral.


There is a monotonous, indifferent and somehow logical tone in the book, with a passionate end. The shift is apparent, emphasising the change in Meursault, yet he does not change, but merely stressing his logic. Was it an enjoyable read? Well I couldn't say for sure, but it sure is thought-provoking. Are we all not normal in a logical way? And yet, emotion is the very thing that bonds humans together and bring about evolution from a prehistoric caveman to a modern man with values.

In any case, the book is interesting and deceptively simple, but in the few pages lies a very important message of existentialism and absurdism. This is very possibly not the whole truth, but it is not, too, unworthy of attention and thought. Love The Outsider, which resonates with me long after I'm done. The only novel worth my time so far in IB English Lit. And I shall end with a quote from Camus in the book:

Lying is not only saying what isn't true. It is also, in fact especially, saying more than is true and, in the case of the human heart, saying more than one feels. -Albert Camus

Monday, February 24, 2014

Last Published: 29 Jan

._. Last post published is almost a month ago.

I simply do not have the time for blogging anymore. :(
All time is spent on sleep, eat, classes, assignments and PAD.

*sighs*

Even though I've accumulated a lot of topics to write about, I SIMPLY do not have the luxury nor time.

I'll write something, I promise. Right now I have to study for French test tomorrow. Econs test was today and I crammed. .___.

Love you guys who still read this dormant blog of mine. I'll be back. :)
Kthxbai.

The Big Question for MOE Bursary Scholars: IBDP Aye or Nay?




This post is updated! Why "updated"? Because this post is now from an experienced me. Of course I'm not as experienced as my good seniors, but it is definitely an update from THIS one that I wrote a year ago when I got the scholarship and proceeded to mull over the very important matter.

And yes, people, it is VERY important. It is life or death.

You do NOT want to end up in deep shit because you chose the wrong course.
^ This especially applies to people who got into IB and decided that it is Hell's middle name.

This, to me, sums up IB.
Anyway. I don't usually proactively offer help to people, or hang around Facebook answering a million questions. I guess it's good enough on my part to offer a post on how to decide in this 3 months (it took me that long, like seriously, it was a week before the bursary deadline when I applied).

My current batch of IB students has 30+ of us (about 34?) although we started about 38 of us. 3 of us dropped after one semester. So yeah. However according to some of the student ambassadors, many more students applied for IB this year, presumably because of our senior Eleasha's successful offer to study at Harvard (which was a big piece of national news). But before you rush to apply in the hope of getting into the most prominent Ivy League university, do you think IB is for you?

So here's a few facts about me:

  • I'm an MOE Bursary Scholar, took SPM in Dec 2012, got 9A+, got the Bursary in 2013
  • I'm currently an IB junior at Taylor's College Sri Hartamas, enrolled in July 2013
  • My course is for 2 years, will be sitting for finals in May 2015.
  • I stay in the hostel accommodation provided.


Why TCSH:
Disclaimer: I am not in any way paid by Taylor's to say all this. I am in all honesty giving my holy opinions, including the goods and the bads. 

It is convenient. My accommodation is just across the road, 1 minute to college if you're lucky, 5 minutes if you're unlucky like me and got Block E, which is the furthest block. Still it was really close and I don't have to face jams every time I want to get to school. This means I can wake up late and still get there in time. Major bonus point right! And we have weekly cleaners. BUT: it's fixed so yeah. 

It is modern. I haven't seen another private college having escalators as staircases (probably because we're in an office/shop building). I love it because this means I can lug my heavy bag up two floors without going crazy. The facilities and furniture and stuff are really new and polished too, since the campus only started since 2009. This means we get to use newer, not-vandalised-yet stuff! BUT: no cafeteria. Food choices limited to outside food which are mostly expensive (but there are cheaper options too!)

Taylor's reputation. As shallow and superficial as you might think it is, it's not. Yes Taylor's is rich, expensive, and spends on advertisements like nobody's business. But it's free for us, so since finance isn't an issue, why not go for the biggest and brightest college there is? They have consistent good results too. Now before you bash me up about how other colleges are good too, I know, I get it, and you will know that I've been to many of them if you read my earlier posts. Hence I'm choosing TCSH based on all criterias, not just the reputation. BUT: Taylor's known for A-Levels, not really IB.


And now, why IB:

1. I have no idea.
2. Repeat 1.

Like seriously. Well I did have valid reasons for choosing IB in my earlier post HERE, but all of that didn't really matter. I might want six different subjects that I could never do with A-Level combos, want a better education, find the idea of 25% coursework grade interesting, think EE is something I would enjoy, give me an edge for US universities, yadda yadda yadda, but at the end of the day when you're faced with shitloads of IB stuff you just want to throw your head in and give up and nothing that I mentioned matters anymore. 

That was the point when everyone regretted their decision and wanted desperately to change to A-Levels.

Don't get me wrong, IBDP is a wonderful course with a great philosophy: a balanced education for a balanced, global student. I love the course, the fact that I can choose all the subjects I love instead of packages that I have to take, which may not be the ones I like or suitable for my future degree.



Goods of IBDP:
  • A wonderful, wonderful experience when you don't look at the amount of work you have.
  • You get to go to another country for a service programme! Mine's Cambodia. You get to run charity sales, loads of fun activities that you can choose from to complete your CAS hours. 
  • Depending on who your coursemates are and how they are like, chances are you will be much more able to form strong relationships with them than in A-Levels. The IB community is the most close-knit among the three programmes offered here.
  • Depends on your subjects, sometimes you get experienced teachers who make your subject interesting and easy to learn.
  • Again depending on your subjects, you get REALLY small classes, ranging from 2-20 people, so it's much easier to concentrate in class.
  • Good edge for applying to universities, especially in the US where they value a well-rounded experience. Not that good for UK cause they don't really recognise IB much as in their offers are known to be unfairly higher than A-Levels, so you'd be better off doing A-Levels (although we might see a little change in the future)

Bads of IBDP:

  • Depending on your subjects, sometimes your teachers keep changing. Although this probably just due to the college issues, nothing to do with IB.
  • The workload is scary shit. No joke. We all thought we'd be fine and disregard any warnings from our seniors, but now, 3 months to being a senior myself, I'm dying. There's just so much to do that sometimes I don't know where to start. Excellent time management helps a lot. 
  • Deadlines are horrible. You get everything thrown onto the same deadline, so knowing what to do when is IMPORTANT.
  • CAS paperwork is annoying. Even though I like writing, having to write reflections for every activity I do gets stale.
  • Teacher experience. You might find that you will need to rely on yourself for some of the subjects, as some of the teachers have little to no IB background, although they will be eager to help you, I find that being independent is very important as I couldn't feel secure in some of my subjects. 
  • Expenses. Bursary might cover all of your tuition fees, but it doesn't cover your textbooks (which can go up to more than RM2000), graphic calculator, travelling expenses and whatnot.


And here's some interesting things you might want to know about:

  • You get your allowance every 6-months (meaning they will pay you RM2000+ at once) but it takes forever for them to bank in, so it's like you only get your Jan-June money in March.
  • Accommodation is provided but fixed and it depends on which college you go to, some may be walking distance while others require shuttle buses (extremely annoying esp in KL, best to avoid to save your time)
  • Extremely expensive to stay in the Sri Hartamas area. The MOE allowance will not be enough, so be prepared to fork out some more money if you're to stay here all the time (if you're from other states especially and can't go home.)


Would I recommend this to anyone? Well, I guess it depends. I know some people who will love this and will be determine enough to persevere through this so they can reap its ultimately better rewards, but I also know some people who just can't do so much at a time and will be easily demotivated if there's too much work. 

My answer would be only you know what you are capable of. If you'd like to come here and be a junior, you're very much welcome. But remember, be fully prepared of the things that you have to do. However if you can go through 2 years of this, you'll definitely be more prepared for university and gain many skills and friends that will last you through life. :)

Would I have reconsidered?
Sometimes when the going gets tough, I have regretted. 
But ultimately I haven't and will not give up as I'm already into this and will do anything to see this through and pass the IB hurdle! :)
And I think it's worth it, though it may be psychologically biased. HAHA.

Feel free to ask me any questions below. :) I might take awhile to get back to you though, all in the name of IB. :3