ICU...pray for him

ICU!

No...it's not I see you...

Stands for Intensive Care Unit.

T.T

Already a long time...more than a week...that he's sick. And about a week he's stuck in there. And I miss him so...

Not only because I haven't talked to him for more than a week..but also so worried about him..

Remember...my grandma died in ICU...

Hz...and I've been there because my other grandma went in there after a heart surgery. She was so cute since she couldn't remember about the surgery and thought she hadn't done it yet. Lol...

The room was full of monitors and machines and tubes to monitor the patient's condition. And there's a chair, not for visitors, but for a nurse who is about 24hours in the room. Can you imagine the seriousness? A sudden change could prove fatal, that's why there is a nurse waiting in the room. >< 

God, I'm so scared.

Delien can't just leave me like that. I don't want him to leave me. I'm probably crazy since I listened to 如果我变成回忆 continuously without stopping and cried without stopping. That song made me cry even when everything is normal. Now he's terribly ill and I'm listening to THAT SONG. T.T...

I don't want him to leave. I don't know what I'll do if he leave me. I've always wanted a future with him, and I've loved him even during the times when I'd really like to scream and hit him. I love him so much I couldn't break with him...because I believe in our love. No way God is gonna take him from me like that...

We've gone so far, did so much just to be together, just to stay together. Just to prove our love. This can't end like that. I want him...T.T

I'm so worried. He contracted dengue last week, and was really sick, got admitted to hospital, but he was still okay. He didn't call due to dead phone battery and no charger. He called me one last time before his phone went dead, asking me not to be angry with him. I didn't....

He sounded okay...but who knows...after a few days of worrying, I got to know he's in ICU...

His mother told me. She wouldn't say any more. :( Left me feeling so upset and worried...

I told Kelvin. He was worried about DL too and helped me to ask information from DL's brother. Hz.

I wrote a letter on a really nice card to DL and made an orange pom for him. Passed it to HuiJie's mom to HJ to JJ to DL's bro. The sequence were successfully completed and it was now at DL's bro. I have no idea if DL is conscious enough to get it from him and read it.

I hope he can read it. Then he won't give up easily.

Hz. Darling...sorry for everything..sorry that I can't go visit you. It's not like in the movies where the heroine rush to meet the hero even though there are parents. I can't do that. There is an ending in movies. This doesn't end in a day. I can't go...

T.T

But I went to pray for you at a small temple. I will go pray at a more famous temple this Saturday. And I will pray every night for you to get well. Don't care if it's Christian or Buddhist. I believe both, I'll pray both.

My friends, HJ, JJ, WY, JX, TY,...and his friends YZ, KC etc also hope he'll be better. :) Thanks guys for your wishes. I'll pass it on in my prayers.

I love you, Delien darling. Please don't fail me. Please get better. 

We were going to get our 2nd year anniversary gift, remember? You didn't celebrate my birthday with me this year. I want to celebrate every next birthday with you. So don't don't DON'T give up. So get well, fast. Ok?

Remember YE sales? I wanna meet you there...T.T

I have a feeling you won't get well enough to meet me...but I'm still praying hard. I know you want to meet me too. Get well...get well...I love you.

I channel all my power and love and health to you.

I wish I can change place with you. If you can get better, I don't mind being sick.

I love you Delien. Forever.

Love,

Ai