I'm A Defecting Science Student :P

Is it already a week since classes start?
So far the classes have been quite enjoyable. I'll tell you more when I have the time. Homework must be done first. (see, I'm such a good student :P)
(In actual fact there is nothing I would like to do more than to come back to my apartment and just fall asleep)
All joking and seriousness aside, it has been a can-say-good start and I have not regretted my decision to defect from science stream.

A few months ago I was:

Why? Because I'm interested in science, but I hate science. Go figure. I guess I can understand YP now. She loves reading up on Biology-related stuff all the time (I remember we were preparing for an interview and the day before she was still reading about bears. =.=) but she hates studying Bio. She is studying Foundation in Science with Biology units and regretting so much, she is considering to do a pure chemistry degree later.

For my Pre-U I considered A-Levels at first, since it was undoubtedly the most popular choice. But there are subject limitations (you can choose at most 4 subjects, and most of the time colleges won't let you take a mix of science and humanities subjects), and not to mention certain weak subjects to avoid because top UK unis are choosy. Weak subjects include Business, Law, Accountancy, and so on which are all humanities subjects.

Hmph. I was actually considering taking both law and accountancy so I would know now which I like better, but apparently UK unis think that doing specialised subjects this early is bad. :(
The most popular 4-sub (Bio, Chem, Phy and Math) will kill me.

So I took the IBDP.

For the subject combo it's still pretty much decided, you must choose a first language to study literature, a foreign language, a social science, an experimental science, Mathematics, and arts, (which you can substitute with a second social/experimental science)

Which are pretty easy to choose since colleges offer limited subjects for each group, plus I can mix science and business and humanities subjects! ;)

So I only chose Biology for my experimental science, and Maths, both at standard levels, not high levels.
So happy about it :D
With my subject combo you will never think that I was a pure science student before :P
(although it might cross your mind since I'm taking Biology, the most "specialised" science, primarily for doctor/dentist/pharmacist wannabes)

Unfortunately even with my A+ list I still don't like sciences and maths.

See, an A+ at SPM doesn't actually reflect on one's interest in a particular subject, only the ability, and not even natural ability. Knowledge was all spoon-fed. Most of the time I don't really want to know anything about it. I studied to sit for exams and achieve good grades, that's all.
Not because I like the subject. The subject was important only to propel me to a scholarship and get a favourable spot at Pre-U.

You need to have learnt sciences at SPM to be able to take up sciences at Pre-U, and parents wanted to keep my options open. Plus it's the natural, normal thing for a student with good enough grades to do. Getting into anything other than science stream would be considered a waste.

*sigh*

The worst thing is that I feel like 7 months of doing nothing relevant to academic has caused me to forget everything I've learnt, particularly and especially Maths. I don't have any natural talent for Maths. :(
I remembered how in April I sat for an Add Math test at an interview, the questions looked so familiar and I was so sure they were straightforward ones, but I just couldn't remember how to do them.

Oh well. I'll have to do some catching up then. Sucks that for IB, Maths is a compulsory thing to do (it even has a group all on its own), but even if I'm taking A Levels, my mom is never gonna let me ditch Maths, 'cause it's so important and useful, so it's still the same.

But I'm defecting a lot more to social science, so it should be better than SPM (where I took 3 sciences, 2 maths, 3 languages [2 of them not my strengths], History and Moral [both with syllabuses that I dislike])
I'm taking English [playing up my strength], Economics and Psychology [social sciences!] at HL (high level). :P

I know I'm taking a risk with those two subjects that I've never had contact with. :/
I wanted so so much to take History (it's a world thing!) but not offered (I died in grief)
Interestingly enough though I would rather take a HL risk with Econs and Psych than swapping with Bio and Maths, subjects which I've already studied before.
I am seriously so not cut out to be a science student, my God.
Why did I spend the past two years in misery?

Challenge accepted

Well~ I have 6 weeks to decide for myself if that's all right. If not, I can change levels and even subjects within that time. Although if I do change, I'm screwed because I'd have to buy new books for Bio/Math at different levels, 'cause those two are the only ones that use different books for different levels. :((((

*and one textbook cost more than RM100, over RM200 for Maths*
*and not covered by MOE*
*btw, my textbooks cost totalled up to exactly RM1229.75*
*excluding lab fees [forgot], lab attire [65], and graphic display calculator [450]*

So I'd better be sure. =.=
Don't want to burn a bigger hole in my parents' pocket than I've already burnt.
*even though they said there's more than enough in my "education fund"*

Defecting from something familiar always holds a great risk.
The risk of regretting.
But change doesn't come without change.
And the thought of spending another two years slavering over difficult science topics is a nightmare.
Change is in time. :)