Christmas 2011

Merry Christmas 2011!!

Not celebrating, but it's nice to join in the fun on Facebook...hahax

I sent a Christmas message to DL's mom..

She replied with a wonderful wonderful message...<3

Can't believe I love her now!!! I used to hate her @@

But I was SO touched when she comforted me through the phone the night before my first day at SHHS...because I was crying and worried I'm going to a new school.

Then later CNY she gave me an angpau...lol..

<3

What a pity DL and me have big Big BIG problems between us...just when I was getting used to his family, and they to me.

=(

Not a happy Christmas for 2011.

~yuen~

Back from camp!

I'm just back from camp!!!

4 days of packed activities...do you know what are the two things that I did when I got home?

Number one: Shut myself in the shower for half an hour...due to irregular showering times at camp...

Number two: Slept for 7 hours straight.

Honest.

No, they didn't torture us or anything, but it is a camp at a NS site...and it is a leadership camp...so you know..we're expected to have high discipline levels and therefore can withstand all pressure...

It was way fun...I got to know friends from different states..(okay they're all Form 3...since it's a camp for F3...but who cares? They look so mature anyway.)

I've got to catch up to homework...4 days absent from school = don't even know what is DIFFERENTIATION!!!

Help!

~Yuen~

8 crazy mottos....8As??? Weird..

Yay me and WY and JJ got 8As................

What a bad example... since we talk n talk n talk n pass notes n do stupid stuff in class all day, everyday...really bad examples...hahaha...didn't even LISTEN to d teacher...

JJ is the most obedient of us all...pass her work up on time...

Me n WY's work all haphazard...muahaha...

Here are the 8 mottos that we practice...

Warning: DO NOT attempt to practise them if you are unsure if you'll be able to achieve 8As in PMR this way. We are not liable for any misuse of this content and the outcome. 

Our 1st motto: If the teacher's nice, leave it until the day to pass up...if the teacher's strict, do the work in the morning of the next day...

Our 2nd motto: If there's enough time...do it ourselves...if no time and the teacher needs it in 10minutes...copy it from other people...

Our 3rd motto: When sleepy or bored in class due to the droning voice of the teacher, pass notes saying how boring we feel...then start a funny game which goes like this: 

Write the beginning of a sentence on a piece of paper, fold it until only the last word could be seen, pass it to a friend, let her continue writing on the last word without seeing what was written in front...fold it and pass it on and on till the suspense is worked up and then ask to go to the toilet...then open up the paper there and start laughing and laughing until the hilarity of it wears off....

Or if the teacher is a very nice one or the teacher has just gone out then open the paper there and then and prepare to bend over with laughter...

Our 4th motto: Laugh at what the boys said so that they get confidence to carry on their antics and talk so that even the teacher wants to join in. 

Our 5th motto: If the teacher ask if we have any homework for the day, tell her with a resounding YES! and start saying how stressed we are...

Our 6th motto: Projects are boring so when we have one, everyone in the class do the research with ridiculously slow pace. Say NO everytime the teacher asks if we have finished the research or if bla bla deadline is ok or not. Kexi forget about it until the deadline is about one more week, then tell the teacher we didn't do anything and show the proof (or in that case, no proof). 

Teacher will then panic and gave everything to us to copy....

Our 7th motto: When Maths lessons start and the teacher gives work to do on the spot, turn back to face a friend and talk while doing work. This will lift up the bore of Maths as well as check each other's answers. In our case, WY even sings while doing work. That's how I got to know new pop songs.....

Sometimes we even sing nursery rhymes and double back with laughter. The Maths work is forgotten.

Example: Baa baa black sheep any any wolf?

               Yes sir yes sir three black wolves...

               One for my mother, one for my dad

               And one for my little boy who bla bla bla bla....

This is what JoYee sang when we asked her to sing Baa Baa Black Sheep...and it became the joke of the year...

So cute...haha yeng JY...^^ no offense ya it's just so funny...^^

Our 8th motto: When PMR is still months and months away, start discussing after PMR activities. When PMR is still weeks and weeks away, start studying AND talking nonsense. When PMR approaches, go crazy. Nobody even study ANYTHING.

There, our 8 mottos and we got 8As. Crazy huh?

That's why when the reporters ask me if I have any study secrets, I just go blank.

I mean, what do you want me to say? Recite the 8 mottos? Lol...

But don't follow us if you don't have confidence that you'll get straight As this way. And by the way, we're not geniuses. 3As are not full of geniuses, far from it. We're just plain students who loves As but hates studying, doing homework and listening to teachers. Just like everyone else...haha...

But I'm sooo glad we all got 8As together...when are we gonna celebrate it??? ^^

My PMR results...

Went to school today to get my PMR results....

Why do they have to make it so scary?

I woke up at dawn in a haze, my heart VERY overreacting. Then I fall back asleep because it wasn't time yet.

Then I woke up again...had butterflies (a little understated) for breakfast which flew around in my stomach all day until lunchtime...

Then I went to school...silently complaining about the distance of my home and my school...why so far???

When I finally arrive SAFELY (thank god!) at school...the first person I saw is JoYee who was dutying at the gate and smiled very yam-chin-ly at me and say good luck ya.....=.= which made the butterflies in my stomach overexcited and beat their wings against me...

Went in...toward the foyer then up to the hall...(why can't they give it at the gate???)

Then saw JJ them crowding at the bottom of the stairs...then they said go get the school magazine in the hall first then go down MO1 get the results...coz MO1 there all 6As and above...

So 3A class everyone go there...so don't worry...

Wtf??? Don't worry??? I'm worrying that I'll get 6As or 7As ok??? >.< who ask everyone I know to give me SOOO much pressure d????

So...the butterflies still not digested...

Everyone went into MO1...=.= die die die!!

Then after a lifetime, Mr Kang finally said: Ok...I announce the 8As first ya....

And we were like: nooooooooooooooo!!

But I guess it doesn't matter much either way...so we diam diam listen...

=.= how come they announce alphabetically...if I get 8As then it'll be somewhere behind...=.=

"Bla bla bla.." *clap clap*

"La la la.." *clap clap*

"Teo Pei Wen..." *clap clap* (oh no I'm behind her...)

Silence....

What are they doing?? Why silence??? No more liao horrr???

Hold your breath...

And then

They called..

Me!

Yay yay YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

La la la la la....

Everyone got 8As...ok so not EVERYONE la...

28 of us...all my class!! Congrats all! ^^

And also 7As and 6As...^^ all of you very yeng too...so proud of my class...hahaha...

KJ got 7As...B in Chinese...I also thought I'd get a B in it...my essay something wrong. Wasn't really surprised at KJ's results but a bit regretful lo. But he has a postive outlook about it and said he's grateful instead of disappointed...that's a very nice view to take...^^ jia you in spm!

Yay me n WY n JJ got 8As!!!!!!!!! 

Happy for you guys and myself ^^...

And of course, DL...he got 2As, 1B, 1C, 4Ds....

Thank God he didn't fail anything la...

He got As in English and Maths...

B in Science...

C in Geography...

Ds in Sejarah (history), KH, Chinese and Bahasa Malaysia...

So he has an "ok" future for science classes...since he got As and B in the crucial science subjects...

Geo and KH can go hang already....SJ most only need pass wad...BM too...and BC isn't really needed. Those who focus on BC getting A are those who are good in it AND/OR those who wants a scholarship...

Hmm...my work (all the study notes and questions I wrote for him and spent time to explain to him...) paid off PARTLY...

At least he got B in Science A in Maths and a pass in SJ...^^

And best of all,

He gets into Science class!!!!!!!!! 4S5!!!

So happy...we were worrying about it for weeks and weeks. Coz the school takes the school exams into account instead of PMR...and he got 200 something in placing...

Coz if he gets 4T1 then he can't pursue his dream careers ler....>.<

4S5 doesn't have Bio but takes Accounts...he isn't planning to be doctor so its ok...^^

That's the 2nd best thing today....!!!

PMR OVER ALD!!

Haha pmr is ald over. 

Sorry I haven't been posting for a long time....lazy + no chance + no time. 

Study a lot ler...hope can get my str8 As...just scared of BC...chose wrong topic to write my essay...so geram + regret. But too late le, when I want to change my topic, ald left half an hour...so didn't change.><

BI leh...quite perfect d...I took my own sweet time to write lo. :-) Haha....wrote dao kinda long...about 4 pages...hehe. I'm most satisfied with my BI!

BM is...okay, not really sure if can get dao A lar...but I tried my best. Not enough time to write a lot in the last bahagian....haiya don care about it la.

MM is fun...I correct all in my paper 1...SO HAPPY. ^^

SC is quite difficult in paper 2...some din even read before lolz...I write as much as I can la. ^^

SJ is the best in all....haha...I simply choose d answer also can correct...lolz. 

GE is ok la...not bad...^^ got confidence...

KH...hmm...wrong quite a lot...coz quite difficult...but it's ok coz we still have the marks for projects.

To tell you the truth...before the papers (SJ n GE) got time can study...but I din even study...lolz. Just at there talk nonsense then JJ was frantically flipping the pages and I was sleepy. LOL.

I'm ok in those subjects...just the BM n BC....let me die nia...:'(

Haiya over le...it's time to RELAX! :D

Miles..and Miles...and miles away from you~~~

Another Poem...

Beautiful, heart-wrenching and meaningful~~

Miles

By Sonia Hernandez

Miles and miles and miles apart.
Although so far you've touched my heart.
Your laugh, your voice, your adoring smile,
Seem to shorten every mile.

I wake every morning and rest at night,
my thoughts and dreams filled with your sight.
Oh how I wish, even for one night,
I could lay in your arms and you hold me tight.
Not just a little briused or battered,

When I think of the distance it's completely shattered.
We'll never give up or say goodbye.
Remember together, the moon in the sky.
Your heart's a part of me and mine of you.
With that alone, we shall not be blue. 

Dedicated 2 Delien Lim

*****I'll Write Your Name In The Stars*****

All hearts could be warmer
And you’ve found your way into mine
But frankly,
I still feel alone
For the longest time,
We’ve pushed towards the state of blissfulness
A purity so cool upon our finger tips
And all at once it leaves us breathless
Wherever you go,
Be my everything
My sunshine in the morning
My stars at night
Promise me forever
Hold me tight
I’m at the next step
Waiting for our year
You can’t be pushed aside
You’re always drifting through my mind
Throuh pools of sorrow
And waves of joy
You’re possesing me
Miles away,
Forever apart
An impossible love
You’re always in my heart
But as time passes and tears dry
My heart will stay yours until the day I die
Limitless, undying love
Which shines like a thousand suns
If we could be together for just one moment
What would it take?
To make or break this hint of love
With next to nothing but open hands
Reach out
Hold on tight
Back up the feelings you claim now
Only time will tell
With this love behind us
Niether broken nor whole
It’s all written in the stars
So let us live or let us die
I’ll write your name in stars
Will you write mine?

Dedicated 2 Delien Lim

(Note: Did not write this myself, got it from a website, but love it loads!!!)

FIRST day of school

Today is first day of school....

OFF 2 SCH

I n HJ so excited dat we run 2 d buildings....hahaha...:P den we stepped into our new class....

Some of d usually early students arrived already...and the tables and chairs are super nice d....not like the rest of dem in dat F3 building...^^yay~~

Then I found a place under the fan for myself, beside Jia Hui in the 2nd row....(she took the best place...T.T haha...)

Some spots were even BOOKED for ppl who didn't come yet....hahax...

On a better note, when my frens n I go around the building we saw HJ n her someone talking 2gether near the stairs. We immediately turn back fr where we came from. Haha then Elysia call sorry den I call 走错路...haha yai leh.

Our form teacher is Lim Kok Hoe...he's so scary. >< Then he changed our places until WY n JJ both seperated fr me. T.T ...To my front is JiaYean who always talk nonsense, behind me Chen Dong is so silent...to my right have nth 2 talk to Jia Hui...to my left...PW...don even want to look at her. So I'm very bored. :( Walao the canteen ar...so tiny ki...><

Then after recess...when I was at outside of my class dl first time say 我爱你 2 me out loud....haha he's so ps n so sweet...hahaxx...i was 2 shocked 2 ans....haha love you too dl...

Oh ya, YH continues 2 be monitor for 3A...(very funny lo, coz when d form tchr come in first time we all [not me] look at him like it was his tanggungjawab to say bangun...hahax den he ma no choice coz everyone wait 4 him...hahax...den after dat he say 你们够力...hahax)

And Jue Jan become assistant monitor...hahax she's 迟早 d la...

A lot of people become senior prefects le...dey all look so pro nia...hehe...then also got a new girl fr 北海中灵...she come in after recess. I got help her a bit coz she sit behind me.

Datz all lo~~dl ltr pei me out d gate....haha.........

Happy New Year 2 all~

Happy new year to everyone~

Life in 2009 has been devastating at the most and difficult at the least...well, until dl appear...hahax

Even that wasn't exactly pure bliss...:P

More of like bittersweet...

More of like struggling to stay close to him...

Funny that I should fall for him even though he isn't exactly my type...hehe

Funny that I should have cared so much that I tried so hard to keep him close...

But maybe that's what I'm to do, maybe we belong together despite all the differences at first.

I can safely say that he's the best bf I've ever had...not to mention the surprising fact that he's so supportive of my writing...never thought that someone would be THAT supportive..hehe...

2009...jj and I used to say that its one of the worst years...what with a death in my family, so many celebrity deaths, my horrible exams (never gotten a 4th since std 2 or 3...and that was just once...this year its twice in a row...><) saved in the end with a winning 1st...thanks to dl's confidence in me and my own willpower (driven mainly by others criticisms of us that we will never survive everything, and that my exams will drop...><

And I love dl...^^always~~~

love you delien forever and always~

QB wif mom~

QB wif mom is not same as QB wif frens...

but still get to buy thgs...haha

I bought a book!!!

Dark Visions by L.J.Smith author of Vampire Diaries..

I love the cover...black with purple gloss...and I love the story and the characters....

But I hate the male characters names...== almost ruin d whole book hehe

The good guy...his name is ROB. == I don't have any problem with that name but d fact that he has GOLDEN hair makes me almost vomit...(and he has golden eyes too...i love edward but this "rob" wif golden hair n golden eyes are....erm...)

The bad guy is even worse...GABRIEL...omg...==

I think its d name of an angel..and datz y so babyish...haha dunno la i jz don think devastatingly handsome guys should have a name lyk Gabriel...

But I like the rest of the characters names at least...Kaitlyn, Anna, Lewis...and d eccentric Mr Zetes...haha

The story is really dark...with a lot of thrilling scenes in it...and quite painful 2 read...d descriptions of some painful scenes are relentless and explicit...hehe...and also a romance...between Kaitlyn, Gabriel and Rob...

If I were her I would have chosen neither of them...one of the reasons is the names...== and another reason is that I don't like their personalities...Rob in my opinion is a huge idiot and Gabriel is a sad juvenile...haha doesn't seem matured at all either of them...so childish...

But if I have to choose...I think I'll like Gabriel btr...coz he's interesting, and mysterious, and risks his life for that reckless Kaitlyn...(don't you know...girls always hated romance books leading female characters...they're just a bit jealous...haha im a girl...)

The characters in d Vampire Diaries btr....Stefan...Damon...so romantic...haha

And the second female char...Meredith...her name is just beautiful...and elegant...fav name^^

And little Bonnie...I can imagine her with red and orange curls...

And the big horrible boy...Tyler (I've always hated the name...)

But that's where I totally HATE the lead female....==stupid. Elena. Stupid. ELENA!! =="""

Should have been something really nice...hz whatever...

Haha..can't imagine myself so mad about names...but names are important in a novel. They get repeated infinite times...

Anyway.

Later bought a jacket...haha black...im going to find something light pink..some blouse to go with it...hehe i think it'll look nice...maybe i'll wear it on one of those dates with dl? haha..

then went to eat sundae at mcdonald's...i promise i won't get fat...haha just a sundae ma...let me enjoy la...haha

that's all....i'll post other times...

love you delien always and forever..

My 2A class..

Today is very sad...because last day see dao all my friends le...I mean those their results drop dao to other classes d...

Siao d me...suddenly miss everyone...

Today I look at everyone in my class...girls d got divide into big and small groups d...

got ee chen's group...she, mingjing, peiwen, eileen, jieqi and vivian

got huijie's group...she, qiuyin, jiahui, joyee..

got ejie's group...she, elysia, seili, juejan, mayling, jingyee, shuyan...

den got small d groups...like sweetwan n zhiyun, me n jj...den wenyih n tek pei sometimes join us or d others...

boys d ka more united...hehe got d always talk abt football or dota nia d lo...

suenruey, tzesern, mingxian, chendong, yaodong, kayjin...

den got another group..dunno wat dey talk abt...never go listen...

jiayean, CCT, yiquan, richard， daniel

den got a silent pair...so quiet i think dey use sign language talk d...wan hear dem talk vry dff...

aaron and benjamin

den got d more intellectual d lo...not say maths den say science like dat d...jkjk

boonkai, yihang..sometimes tuyuan join dem or suenruey d...

haha like dat lo...so happy can get to know and be friends with all of them...with one exception

so happy..haha...jj went to get their signatures...suan le i din bring my class pic..whatever

suan suan suan...never mind la...as long as everyone stay in chung hwa...we sure will meet d

nex year's gonna take PMR...

although some of my friends not same classes le...

Still hope everyone get very good PMR results...gambateh!!

haha...

My results...out le!!

We get d exam marks le...ALL take le...yay den we spend two periods of class pressing calculators...calculate our full marks...have to multiply by d periods...

I got 3943!!

Haha....I think I won others by 20-30 something marks...

but not so sure YET

I think cannot get 1st for d final time..means all 4 exams add up d final one...

but dis I'm hoping can get...I think so la

If I don't count Kokorikulum, I can get. But if counted, then not sure le.

how can like dat??!! KoK is not included d ma!!! dat one is whole year d ma!!!

dey say it is add in d final time...i hope so la

I wonder what dl will think of my exam results?

cos I study very hard get d 1st place (if i did get) is for dl d

all because of him d...

i lazy get le...but he want..so i get lo...

so...i hope he can appreciate me and my results la...

So I n ZY, first or second lo. But who get 3rd???

Den I was keeping track of KayJin n TekPei d results...

we think TP take lo...cos KJ lose her a bit...den d whole result paper come into class, den we start pressing calculators...

CALCULATORS IN HOT DEMAND!!!

haha...i din bring...but i borrow others d lo. Den after ZY n I 理论 abt our results

we start kepo...scared other ppl grab our precious 1st place

den i help TP count...den KJ count again his marks...

den suddenly KJ ask ZY...she got count dao YH d marks or not..

she say no...cos he always only get 6th place d...so she din bother count...

den dat time YH not at class...he went 2 do maths wif Mr Kang

den ZY oso nth 2 do..so she start count his marks...

They ald said YH got very big 进步 in exams dis time...

ZY says he got...

3800 something.

Winning TP and KJ.

TP look unhappy...den KJ hid his unhappiness by laughing at himself...
LOL.

 

love u forever dl..

T.T I hate Friday...

DL...he went to johor le!!!

hz...he came very early 2day 2 my class 2 c me...we go walk...even went to d kws larangan...

walao..haha..den he hold my hand...4 d last time...have to wait a long time 2 hold his hand agn..

den he kissed me...also 4 d last time 4 a long time 2 come..

haha later i at 大庭广众 kiss him...dunno ppl got c dao or not...

Den we got "assembly" check hair...i din got caught..but Jia Hui n Yi Quan tio...den dey waited under d sun for 5 hrs...siao d miss teh...JH wan sue her...haha

den halfway i notice dao dl's family at there waiting...haha his bro wear dao so 显眼...den I first time c dao his mom (i think his mom gua) but cnt c clearly...den i call dl...he stim stim d...his family thr he oso din c dao...== hehe

den...later i ask if he's going le...he said ya but a bit later...

how i noe...dat is d last conversation we had...face 2 face...4 a long time to come...

T.T...later MM tchr change class wif BI tchr...so...he din come find me le...if BI tchr she sure let d

hz...Joyee come up, say "Delien 回了" 2 me

害死 me cry in class...first time dis year

T.T...den JJ later very nice 2 me lo

but today...is d first recess without him pei me up 2 my class...is d 2nd recess without him at his duty place...is d first day after school no one wait for me...

he isn't at school le..

he isn't at greenlane le

he isn't at penang le

he isn't near me le..

he is so far away...so far away...dl...

suddenly feel so empty...so sad...

walao...i can 一面 type 一面 cry...so innovative...T.T

dl...dl...dl...

i noe its me who want him go...he din wan go d

but his responsibility lai d ma rite..

so he go will b btr...

but i want him..wif me...hz im starting to be so 黏人 le..

now he's so far...away...left me in penang

hz...T.T....T.T...whatever...

Much more sweeter Thursday...

Sweet Thursday again...

My marks:

BI:93%

highest in class...so happy...dis whole year...first time got highest so many subjects...haha

a bit 吓到

but good la...can prove to parents...that my results are still fine...even if my life got him le..

and can also prove to him...that he didn't 看错 me...haha...even if his frens ever say him no taste...

my results got taste...^^ hahha

and can prove to his frens...dat his girlfriend...is 看得起 d ar...my memory and brains vry good d...

hehe...

abo always 看低 me..

today we go auditorium watch movie again...continue watching d chipmunk movie...hehe

walao behind...so many kepo boys from my class...==

but dey oso 合作　la...help me call him...^^

anyway...today i bcom ice again...den he hold my hand...so nice...den din bcom ice le^^

he lend me his jacket...but no use d...only himself dat can warm me...^^

after recess...

saw dem talk...dunno wat dey talk abt oso...a bit curious

later my class went back to class to wait for science teacher and to get the results..

but d teacher half hour liao still din come

den we had to go to science lab take stupid video...

so scared cannot join him in auditorium...so sien...suddenly got fever..

den finally teacher let us all go back auditorium...yay so happy so happy...he come sit wif me
den he hold me lo...haha hug me a bit...so nice...

I kiss him time...he smiled...hehe..

we watch d 吓到笑...he laugh...i like his laugh...^^

den we only watch a bit nia...

den later he tried to kiss me ==

i din let him...den he look disappointed...he almost catch dao me

but...lol.

anyway..really very happy today

like that lo..

just now he...worried about something i talk wif jj

dowan him 误会...but since he's upset

so i told him...

but now I'm already sad...whatever...

i didn't want think about other things le...if not..i will have mixed feelings..

And dunno wat 2 feel...sorry...dunno how to explain..

i just want concentrate on dl...

i just want dl...

just want him...

Wanna cry...

I'm going 2 cry....
My sivik marks
oh no...
just bcos of a small mistake
my 20 marks...
fly..
away..
so worried
my 没良心 tchr said
one mark oso NO

10 q...2 marks each...20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hz...but she still say no...
Richard n I...so geram..
Me more...coz i cannot afford to lose any mark...
Even though my other 4 subjects marks i got 4 today quite good...
still...
i still need my 20 marks...hz...what if i got all correct..then lose all bcos i din write BETUL n SALAH?????
SO MAD...wan cry + argue...

These are the marks i got 4 today...:
BC: 76
BM:87 (mayb 88)
GE: 82
SJ: 93
PM:93

Hehe...worst is BC lo...76 nia, highest TP　n ZY...92 n 91...KJ 76 like me...
BM i got highest GUA...hehe...ZY 84, KJ n TP both 80..
GE...I'm 2nd highest, but HengJ.Jan also same same with me...then TP 83...KJ 75..(or so he say)
SJ I think I got highest..not very sure...ZY n KJ both 90, then TP worse, 79..dunno wat happen.
PM erm...TP highest, 94, KJ 91, ZY 87...

lyk dat lo..tmr giv MM...scared...

k la...datz all i think...

Till then~

我有做错吗？

这几天还蛮快乐的，有了他的陪伴，每天都快乐得眉开眼笑，好爱他好爱他

因为他，属于我，所以觉得有安全感，所以无所畏惧...

但是，曾经有一次，我犹豫了几天，也让无辜的他担心了...

不会解释，那种恐惧，好像接受了他，就像做了一件错事...

那几天里，很奇怪，好像根本对他没有吸引，没有喜欢之意...

越来越觉得恐惧，这次真的想错了吗？

对他，没有那种疯狂，没有那种热情，没有那种感觉。

那...我为什么接受他呢？

是不是因为拥有了，就少了一些什么的？是不是认为一切都是理所当然，他爱我是理所当然，所以才不把每天的关心当一回事？

问问自己，为什么会爱上他？因为外表？个性？

再问问自己，爱他吗？喜欢他？还是像很多人，在...利用而已?

从来很讨厌利用自己的人...

不能接受自己竟然有可能做出这种事...

真得让我犹豫了很久...

终于有了肯定。

其实，其实，我不是在利用他。

其实，其实，我是爱他的。

因为曾怕失去他，因为失去他，代表失去自己，失去我最爱的...

真得很怕失去他，有时会很吃醋...他却不曾对不起我，还蛮欣慰的。

也因为他，最近不再一直想起伤心事

都因为他。

自己总是追求完美。

其他的他，虽然完美，我却因爱过、痛过、伤过、哭过、笑过...
而因知道不可能，所以放弃了。

现在的他，他不是他的代替品。

理由很简单。

他，不像他那样完美。
但虽然如此，现在的他，在我心中，是最完美的...

他是我理想中的完美。

很想说

对不起那几天伤到无辜的你，我一直犹豫，是因为不想刻意伤害你。

也很想说

谢谢你.......

让我重拾笑容及快乐

让我感受到无比的幸福

让我拥有梦寐以求的你

但最想说

我爱你...一直都爱着你...
从来没有放弃过你...



我爱你...^^

Jealousy~~

""""""""""Jealousy has
Frightening eyes.
Jealousy has
Grinding teeth.
Jealousy has
A cunning face.

Jealousy can live
Without a mind,
Without a heart,
Without a soul,
Even without God.

Human jealousy
And divine Ecstasy
Are eternal strangers.

Jealousy
Is an aggressive boxer,
A repulsive dancer,
A hopeless singer
And a useless storyteller.

Jealousy,
Before you entered
Into my life,
I was the world's
Richest prince.
Now that you are in me
And I am for you,
I have become
The poorest street-beggar.

Jealousy,
You are my constant
Nightmare-mind.
You are my constant
Love-absence-heart.

Shortest is the distance
From jealousy to hell.

Jealousy,

You are your own

Ultimate

Self-destructive-indulgence.

(Excerpt from My Jealousy Is My Madness-Burden by Sri Chinmoy.)

Ya...jealousy is so dangerous...and so powerful....

Hz....dl is very possessive...and will sometimes be jealous...
a little bit is fine, but...sometimes...too much...can damage d relationship..

I will 适应 his jealousy...
But I also hope...he can 适应 my life a little bit...
haha...den like that we can be more understanding of each other...right??

Hehe that's all for now...

Till then~

They like each other! Ha!

Haha...

Yesterday

my bf

my fav "bro"

get 2 know each other...

so much fun

saw one line..."mind if i call y.a darling?" by my "bro"

den dl said "..."

so funny...keep laughing...hahaha

fortunately they like each other...my bro said dl is quite nice and quite funny....and about d same personality as himself...haha good la.
Dl said my bro is fun to talk 2 and be frens wif....haha even better...

So happy...yay they approve of each other...just scared dl get jealous...haha
He won't la..

He's a good bro, and dl is a good bf...I'm lucky...^^
yay happy...

Ｙｅａｈ ｅｘａｍ ｏｖｅｒ！！！

Ｙａｙ　ｅｘａｍ　ｏｖｅｒ　ｌｅ．．ｗａｌａｏ　ｓｏ　ｌｏｎｇ　ｓｉｎｃｅ　Ｉ　ｏｎｌｉｎｅ...more dan a month ar...

haiz....whole month sleep, study, eat, nothing le...

and at sch...study, talk 2 dl, talk 2 wy n jj...nth le

haiz

den this week exam....so difficult want die le..

but nw...can online!!! yeah...

jz nw after sch rain so hard....den dl was waiting 4 me...den we walk out 2gether...he hold me...den we walk really really close

haha guess what..

then he...erm...

he..

he..

he..

haha

he....kiss...me

he kiss my hair only la...haha....but enough.....4 now....^^

only 1 word for it...

sweet!

hehe...a few days bfor...we walk 2 d gate time...he got hold my hand...but so discreet...

cos we both psps ma...hahaha

k la i think that's all...haha

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