Narcissism Outburst

Feeling down lately...so allow me an outburst of narcissism...:D

Taking photos always make me feel better...of course not those times when I look like a wild witch...><

I was just lounging around at my old house...nothing to do...

Not an actual photo session, no makeup, no pretty dresses, no nothing.

So don't hope for any princess/beauty looks :P

A normal me. In a slightly nicer state than usual, that's all. ^.^

P.S: I didn't even edit/fix/photoshop the photos. Honestly. You can see the horrible remains of past pimples. God. T.T Now I wish I had.

This is like, too dark, right?

Honestly...>< kinda over-exposed. But I like the planes of light.

Haih. I wish I had edit this one...><><

One of my favourites...lol. Should've been slightly higher though.

This is my favourite one....hehe...

 

 

But there's ONE thing...did you realize I had actually developed a faint double eyelid?
I swear I didn't fix any false ones on.
I did try, in the past. And after that the fold just keep appearing at times.
I never even had a faint line in the past, really.
LOL.

Plus I don't really look like this usually. It's the sunlight that made me look so bright and "fair".

Anyway...I'm happy the way I am.

~Yuen~

Family outing-Nibong Tebal-Batu Kawan

Went to Nibong Tebal, Prai with family...plus 3rd aunt and uncle...just a family outing.

Was raining through the whole journey there...

We were worried that the rain wouldn't let up, but it did after we reached.

Not really much there, it was a very sleepy town. -.-

But. There were three highlights of the day.

First is we went in search of Bukit Panchor National State Park...

Which turns out to be in a sad state...and since it's really far and out-of-reach, 

The people who actually went there are the kampung kids.

=.=

Not worth taking any pictures really. 

But they have some impressive tall trees.

Anyway the 2nd highlight was unexpected.

We stopped by an old shop selling all those sweet delicacies...

It was called Chop Chuan Guan Confectionery.

Photos below show how they make those sweet and crunchy traditional Chinese cakes...

(I don't know what to call it)

So fast you can't even see the hammer...flattening the paste while it's hot

Finished product! Yumm =)

Some of the "scenery"

Look at those old houses~

This is so old it's boarded up...but notice the windows? This must be a rich guy's house of long ago...

Plants inhabiting the house~

To the jetty to watch fireflies...

 But we didn't watch the fireflies. Instead, we headed over to Yen's Seafood for dinner at Batu Kawan. It was my dad's favourite hang-out place in the past. It used to be a small wooden house, but has now flourished into a tall, modern building for a restaurant.

Food now!

This is the best (and cheapest) dish! Steamed baby octopus with yummy sauce. It tasted original and really fresh.

Mee...it was okay~

 Fish. Red snapper. Quite nice actually. The sauce is good.

Kappa in a hot sauce. Fresh, delicious, but only a few for quite a price.

Crispy sotong...not that nice because the batter was too thick and there is no original sotong flavour. LOL.

 It ended up being the dish we couldn't finish and had to take home.

Chrysanthemum tea. It was really refreshing and hot. The tea is clear with no debris...mmm.

 

 

 

 All in all it was a yum-yum place to eat, recommended!

Service is good, fast...

Price quite good...but the crab's RM60/kg...>< ended up not eating crab.

Haha..well...our bill was RM104

XDD

~Yuen~

HATE

Hate…

Such a powerful word.

Do I really hate him? Do I really hate her?

Truth?

No.

I don’t hate her because:

1. She’s not worth me hating. Who is she, anyway?

2. She’s…partly innocent. I still don’t believe she wouldn’t research about ME before accepting him. He told me she knew about me before she accepted him. And since she’s a girl, (and not a dumb boy, :P) she’d probably asked around to see if we’re still together. Out of curiosity, out of suspicion, whatever. But she’d at least ask once. You know?

I don’t hate him because:

1. I understand him. You see, a 16 year old guy, has a long-distance girlfriend, feels lonely after more than a year of being in a relationship, not able to see her frequently, still upset about a big argument in the past, influenced by stupid male friends…what do you think? How many out there are going to stay committed? Remember, there’s the age, and there’s the distance. Even mature 30-year-olds have a hard time maintaining long-distance relationships. The temptation is too strong.

2. My mistake. I don’t mind him doing anything before. I’m a whatever-you-want person, so long as we’re both okay with it. He didn’t think the line would be drawn at this point.

So…you see. I can’t hate him, and definitely not her.

All I feel is fatigue and pain. ><

This is too much.

SPCA and Gypsie

Went to SPCA~ first time I’m there. It was pretty fun.

Cleaned out the dogs’ kennels…hugged some lovable puppies~ They didn’t seem to mind the soapy water, some of them even tried licking the water up…><

This is a flea-infested dog…poor thing. Having a shower with special flea shampoo. Poor thing was shivering like mad though, and it kept trying to stand on its hind legs to get out, but slipped and fell heavily.

And the cattery, you just can’t believe the number of cats there, all living together. I knelt down and one jumped into my lap at once. They were surprisingly friendly, didn’t scratch or yowl but keep on rubbing themselves against me…lol.

This is the dog I loved the most there. Her name’s Gypsie, 4 years old, and looks so beautiful. Plus she’s shy…lol she turns away every time the camera’s pointed at her.

I want her so much…

But…

Parents aren’t really that crazy about dogs…

And…

There’s the question of who’s going to take care of it once I get out of here…

Sigh.

I love Gypsie.

Please forgive the crappy looks we all have...we were too tired...lol.><><

Fate

Everything happens for a reason.

It’s the only motto that keeps me going on with life.

Why?

I really have to stop asking that question. Why?

Why did I have to leave CHC? Why did God decided to make me leave?

Did He know that it would result in so much trouble? So much pain?

I’m so tired with life ever since I left…

No, CHC isn’t heaven. But at least there’s an anchor. And I have DL. And JJ. And WY. And the rest of them. They keep me sane.

Now? JJ and WY are fine on their own. The rest of them probably forgot about me. DL is…busy. I’m not going to appear on the graduation booklet. I’m just a…nothing. In the end.

Sometimes thoughts like this just gets me down.

Really down.

I used to be all fire and light, happy-go-lucky, optimistic about life, fighting for my own rights.

Now…I’m still me, of course, but the fire died down somehow…

And I’ve been trying,

But it’s not reigniting.

Being with JJ…was nice, and I’m happier, but it was just temporary. I can’t meet her everyday, not like the past.

I’m in my own world.

Help…

~Yuen~

The Pilot’s Wife—Review

I borrowed this book for the sake of reading. And I was interested about the title, since DL’s first ambition is a pilot. You know.

Well anyway this book, written by, is suffocating. Just…suffocating. It gets worse and worse and when you reach the point where Kathryn, the main character learnt of the truth that was hidden from her all the time, you’ll let go of a breath that you never thought you were holding.

And then the tears came.

Oh God I don’t even know why I picked this book in the first place.

It’s suffocating, and it makes me cry. And it makes me think, are all men that way?

Kathryn is a pilot’s wife, who was devastated when her husband died in a plane crash. She knew he was a good pilot, and it was not merely a pilot’s error. She tries to find out the truth about the crash, while trying to contain her grief, remembering the bittersweet past and moving on in her life with their daughter.

She remembered how he had fallen in love with her at first sight, how their age gap never troubled them, how sweet he had been to her. Some years after they were married, he would leave home for days, come home for a while and then leave again. He started to become busier, missed all of the important occasions, and when he was at home, he’d be fixed on his computer and TV. They got into more and more fights, but she ruled it all down to his fatigue and unpredictable working hours being a pilot.

Once he was gone, she began to find out about him, what he had been doing all along, and unearth some complicated and heart-wrenching issues…

Honestly, this is a tear-jerking novel. ><

Recommendation: 4 Stars

~Yuen~

Beautiful Creatures—Review

Stunning. It’s the only one word that can sum up this whole book. It’s very thick, 500 more pages, just for the first book. It’s the first of the Caster Chronicles series.


Written by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl, this book is about a mortal (or seem to be) sixteen-year-old boy who lived in a small Southern town called Gaitlin. One day a new girl came and the boy, Ethan, was shocked to find out that she was the girl that has been in his dreams all those time.


The girl, Lena, has a dark secret and superpowers that she’s trying to hide. Ethan who was falling in love with her was determined to find out what it is that’s bugging Lena and found out that he was going to find out more than he bargained for.


This is a deep, dark book that will entertain fans of dark fantasy perfectly. It is detailed and packed, with surprises and new information at every turn of the pages, and keeps one mesmerized until the end. Research prior to writing is obvious, and the authors seem to have excellent knowledge on superstitions and fantasy. History of Lena and Ethan’s families are also well-developed, served to readers at appropriate times.


The only downside is the ending, where it fell a little flat after all the anticipation. But the development of the story is good, and any writer would know that writing the middle part of any story is not easy.


All in all, this is a good-for-value book, with its many pages, interesting characters and original plot.


=) Happy reading, guys!


Recommendation: 5 Stars

~Yuen~

NaNoWriMo is here!! Again!!

And yes, November looms (I know...it's already nearing the end of the second week...)...and tens of thousands of budding writers and novelists are slaving away at their NaNoWriMo goals.
The NaNoWriMo forums are always exploding in November...it's not quite sleepy during other months (especially December when the fun is over), actually, but if you want more help, more ideas, ask in November.

For those who are still in the dark about what I'm saying...NaNoWriMo stands for
National Novel Writing Month.
Although I think they really should change it to International Novel Writing Month. I mean, it's CLEAR that this is a world-wide sensation, annually.

""National Novel Writing Month is an annual event where creative types around the world sit down at their desks on November 1st and try to bang out 50,000 words by the 30th. It began back in 1999 when director Chris Baty and 20 of his friends came up with the idea to write novels for the same reason more rebellious types start bands: they had nothing better to do and wanted to make some noise. Now in it's 11th year, with participants around the world numbering in the hundreds of thousands.""
Quoted from holynerdblog.blogspot.com

Well, it's basically that. There are no qualifications except one: you must be willing to try. There are no rules basically, it's just a fun activity. The goal is simple: Write a novel of at least 50,000 words in the 30days of November (not more, not less) and you will win the activity. Prizes? Nah, this is purely for self-satisfaction.


I'm a very lazy gal so I'm not sure if I'm even going to start another novel....still grieving over my lost data of TWO half-written novels. One of them was actually written in November (I never heard of NaNoWriMo then).


Well...I shall see...:P
Perhaps I could come up with a vague plot and flesh it out somehow. ><
It's HARD TO START A NOVEL FOR GOD'S SAKE.

Hardest Chapter of all...

And I never have enough time to think or write...anyway.
I am in awe of my younger self..who writes using pen and paper...pages and pages....
Now...please, forget it. I can't even find time to type words, let alone making my hand ache for writing??


I still have that passion for writing though...^^
It's what I do best. =)

~Yuen~

R.I.P Hazel my precious~

My Hazel...darling...
She passed away today...I don't know what time..but I went to see her in the morning and she was all curled up in a corner. I shook the cage a little (which always woke her up at once) but today..today she didn't wake up...

And then I felt suddenly bad...I know something's wrong...so I found a pair of chopsticks and prodded her gently...but she didn't move...


Her eyes were close and her mouth slightly open..showing tiny front teeth..
And I know she's dead..


I buried her in the garden...at a corner near some colourful plants...
And spelt her name "H-A-Z-E-L" out with tiny garden stones...
T.T


I don't have the energy to sort out and upload her best photos...but I promise I'll do so very soon..okay? This is one of her cutest photos...she loves climbing the bars of her cage...to see better.


Thanks for all the happiness that you gave me especially when I'm sad...thanks for loving me no matter what...thanks for trusting me with your little life...
Be happy in the hamster heavens above, okay? I'm sure the angels will love to have my lively girl brightening their heavens. Oh and find Jacques if you can...and tell him I miss him.


I love you, Hazel love.
I'll remember you and your cute ways, forever.

Accounts...accounts...

I love the above photo. XD looks so professional.

Sigh. What made me take stupid accounts????

I asked WQ who took it with me though we were both studying pure science...and she said she wanted to be able to do accounts in the future and don't need to depend on others. Like she knows everything about it and can detect mistakes (accidental or not) by clerks and accountants if she ever opens a business.

Well...my reason isn't SO ambitious...

Partly took it because it is interesting (even though I kinda swore that I would never take accounts after PMR...the perdagangan part of Kemahiran Hidup in PMR drove me yoicks. (yoicks means crazy in the Legend of Ga'hoole. Erm it's an owl novel series)

It's challenging...and it's satisfying when I finally, finally understood the concepts...you know.

And partly because I want a better chance for a scholarship...it's now a 10+2 system...I've already have 10 subjects including Chinese...and I can add two more...so if my Accounts and the other subjects except Chinese get A+...then I can throw Chinese out of the window and put Accounts in...so it would show 10A+ which is one of the requirements for a JPA scholarship anyway.

You get what I mean. >.<

WQ got 92 for the finals...=( I only got 68. I still lose to her even if I turn the numbers around. Sigh.

It's strange because she's the one careless during lessons, and I'm usually quite careful, but then she's always better in exams. Haih. What am I suppose to do?? There's still that Akaun Folio...haven't even started Jurnal..

Heard that some people are contemplating to take Perdagangan...I think they're yoicks.

Of course they wouldn't dare take Akaun...but Pdgn is comparatively much much easier than AK...

And not much calculations. 

But we all know why...it's only to boost their faces...they wanted 11 subjects for the sake of being more than others...

Of course taking 11 subjects is fun, and impressive...and of course both me and WQ enjoyed that...but in the end it's the interest in the subject that counts, don't you think so?

~Yuen~

Moody..

Why am I so moody these days? My mood swings are so terrible.

One time I'm happy, another time I'm down again...

Sigh.

Don't tell me I'm following the moon phases again? Astrology is partly crap, but sometimes it turns out to be true...=.=

Well at least I know my problems aren't due to moons...or illusions...

They're very, very real...

I wish I'm a genie...*puff* and all problems vanish in smoke...

~Yuen~

Marching season...starting?

Hmm...today I went marching again...prefects.

God, I've actually forgotten everything drilled into me more than 6 months ago..

Z.

They called every prefect (Form3 and 4) down....and trained them the basics...since Tuesday but I only went today...

Anyway I've gone to that state competition before so I should be safe..

You know what? Just now they gave us a bergerak ke kiri command while jalan...and I totally forgot how...and just went on instincts...luckily my instinct's correct and I didn't break the motion of the whole team...>.<

I still remembered how my Form5 senior forced me to do that command under the sun in the middle of the field in April...about 50 times...until I got it right. 

Well at least it pays off...

They said they're gonna break us up into smaller groups after this basic training...for an internal competition. And whichever teams win will get to go to that state competition again..

Next year it's SMJK Jit Sin so we had to cut down the number of participants...no more 80 something participants!! To think my school actually flooded PCGHS this year...there were around 100 of us including supporters. O.O

But then JitSin is at Prai...gonna cost a bomb on transportation...so only the cream of the crop gets to go next year.

I have to go!! I just have to. Of course I realize that my first two exams are gonna crash next year if I join. The load of marching practices...well I already tasted it this year...>< But well...I'm never gonna get another chance at a prefect marching competition ever again after F5...and since I love it...I really want to go.

Of course wanting doesn't mean I'll get it for sure...I have to win this internal one first. Although teacher seems to put me in JM's group...and WQ is put into CP's group...so you know. It kind of shows that she wants me and WQ to have a winning chance to get into the school team? JM and CP are professionals...you know. After they won that 2nd prize this year for basic.

Hmm..I wish we girls get to do formation next year....and I also wish I'm getting those black shoes too, if I ever get into the school team. I love those black shoes...with the clicking heels. *sighs rapturously*

Signing off now..

~Yuen~

Back from camp!

I'm just back from camp!!!

4 days of packed activities...do you know what are the two things that I did when I got home?

Number one: Shut myself in the shower for half an hour...due to irregular showering times at camp...

Number two: Slept for 7 hours straight.

Honest.

No, they didn't torture us or anything, but it is a camp at a NS site...and it is a leadership camp...so you know..we're expected to have high discipline levels and therefore can withstand all pressure...

It was way fun...I got to know friends from different states..(okay they're all Form 3...since it's a camp for F3...but who cares? They look so mature anyway.)

I've got to catch up to homework...4 days absent from school = don't even know what is DIFFERENTIATION!!!

Help!

~Yuen~

Hello Blog!! (and my finals results...)

I changed my profile design (again)...

I can't believe that I haven't been updating my blog for SO long...><

I missed all those important occasions...zzz. Hopefully I'll post more frequently now.

New start of my blog! XD

Hmm..what is new in my life? Nothing. Everything is still the same old same old...no improvements. 

Finals have come and gone...it was the toughest time I've had in all my life...and to think I never studied for my UPSR. Or even PMR. 

Here's my..results. Rotten...rotten...rotten.

BM: 76

BC: 70 

SJ: 85

PM: 96

Bio: 80-84...(haven't gotten back all the papers yet)

FZ: 92

KM: 81

AM: 93

MM: 86

SV: 80

PJK: 100

AK: 68 (dear God)

Oh God. Soooo lousy. I wonder if I'll get 2nd this time? Definitely hope so...I don't want another 3rd again.

Pleeease let me get a 2nd.

I sort of fainted when I saw my AM and MM...my AM is supposed to be worse than my MM...

MM was really easy this time...upset at myself when almost everyone scored 95 above. ZZZ. 

What happened to me??

But AM was great...I got 98/100 for P2...can you believe it?? Mom was satisfied..for once.

And my FZ...you'll never believe this, but I got FZ as the lowest in my 3 Sciences in my 2nd exam...then KM in my 3rd exam...then now Bio in my finals. This shows how rocky my results are. 

But am so happy about my Physics...never thought could actually get a 90 something. 

Not going to rave about every subject here...but I'm happiest about:

Physics, Add Maths, Chinese essay (61/70 !!! That's like the 2nd highest in class and highest in my history), and of course my beloved English. Although teacher gave me a 47/50 for Continuous...>< hello?? I never get lower than 49/50...=(

Well it's a lesson to me: Never write another argumentative essay again. It's too factual...too hard to touch people's (AKA teacher) feelings.

That's all I think~

=)

Till then,

~Yuen~