3rd exam is over for 2011~

Exams are over. And no, I don’t feel excited about my results.

I totally flunked this exam ok?

It’s common in the 1st and 3rd exams. Yeah, they’re just term TESTS, not EXAMS, but I usually did worse in tests. Yup you HEARD me.

>< Anyway I never got a 1st placing in my 3rd exam in history.

So, just go along for the ride. Didn’t expect anything than stupid mistakes.

I did. Made a lot of laughable mistakes. =.=

Read on and you’ll know what I mean.

Physics: The formula was CLEARLY WRITTEN. I wronged all the calculations as well. What the hell…

Chemistry: Can’t remember the formula for sodium nitrate, plus forgot how to do one of the calculations. And I hate Mendeleev. He owes me 3 marks. =.=

Biology: Nothing much, only I wrote 588J as 588kJ. And I “eenie meenie miney mo” on the question on DCPIP and Vitamin C.

Mathematics: Emm…I was pretty satisfied with this actually. Until I found out I had a mistake in “SETS”……again.

Additional Maths: This is pure terror. I couldn’t remember how to do Q.Equations and Q.Functions. I blanked a question because I wasn’t sure of the formula (turns out the one I guessed was correct), partly finished a log question (failed to find the unknown because I was desperately trying to think how to make 2x (square) + 6x = 6 work out. I know…quad equation. After the exam, that is. ><)

But I’m pretty satisfied with the rest of the chapters. They’re so much easier. This paper is much easier but the problem with me and Add Maths is we don’t really get along, so even when it’s easy, I still get things wrong.

Moral: Don’t even get me started on this one. I wrote “menyayangi dan mengHORMATI alam sekitar instead of menyayangi dan menghargai alam sekitar.” Okay, kill me right now. I’m dying from SHAME. @=.=@

Sejarah: Dear God. I totally MISINTERPRET a question. Answers turn out to be Nasrani, Arab and Yahudi. I wrote Muhajirin, Ansar and Yahudi. What.The.Hell.

Chinese: Uh…really…you know how I’m in love with that song ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi right? Inside got two words: pan shan. Came out in the pinyin question, and I didn’t know how to write the pinyin. Shame on me. I forgot a tiny bit of the translation of ancient Chinese, although it’s good considering I just skimmed across the text. The mingju was fine since only 10 of them. And the summary…well, I did my best on that. Quite difficult.

Bahasa Malaysia: Hmm. The answers are all very subjective. So, depends on whether teacher accepts or not. He MUST have an open mind. >.< Summary (rumusan) was okay. The points are easy to find. Anyway, what does “di bawah tilik hamba” means?

English: I love this, maybe because it’s my favourite subject now. It’s so easy to score A+ for this…I just have to indulge in my favourite hobbies. >.< There’s a summary and comprehension questions on text only. Easy! Hope I can get good marks for this.

That’s all. Laugh all you want. == I’m feeling kind of pek chek. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Anyway…FREEEEEDOM is mine!!! So I’m going to forget all this for a week of blissful oblivion. Hahahaha.

Till then,

Michelle Yuen Ai

Queensbay with friends and mom…(RUINED)

Haih. Today was supposed to be perfect. Or, at least, you know, at least be happy. But I’m not…at all. =.=

Let me tell you the story of today and you’ll see what I mean, exactly.

Day started with me waking up at 6am for no reason except to try on the different outfits I have in mind. Due to the extremely few clothes I have (only a cupboardful…) it’s hard to get some readytowear clothes, so I have to mix and match around to get the perfect outfit for today…

Finally decided on a black tube blouse with a semi- transparent white blouse with pink butterflies (it’s actually part of other clothes) with a black skirt. And my new two- tone pink flat button knot pin.

Had some porridge, and then we were about to go. It was 12.40pm and I’m starting to panic.

Suddenly dad asked mom to do some chores that were left undone. Zzzz…so we only left at 1p.m.

Imagine that. I told JJ very clearly that I wanted her to be on time, and I’m the one who only appear at 1.40pm.

When we reach the parking place, Mom had to adjust her car n times before we can even set off toward QB. Zzzz…

Then we had to find JJ…and she was disgruntled because she asked her parents and aunt to go at 12.30pm. =.=

okay…

The JJ-mad part I can handle…but the problem is my mom wanted to follow us everywhere…==

We went to the cinema which was nearby…laughed at a trailer with girls in bikinis (we promised each other we’d watch that movie if my mom isn’t there… )

Anyway, we decided to watch spy kids. Had a row with mom about DL (poor him was waiting at Borders…) and then JJ and me bought seats two-by-two at the back but side of the cinema.

Later we went to Borders to collect DL…he was really, really cute. My mom saw him and talked to him a bit. Then we had time off together, three of us, to Paddington Pancakes. XDD. DL didn’t eat pancakes or strawberries but he finished the bananas on my plate. XD. I had a delicious plate of dollar pancakes with vanilla ice-cream, bananas and strawberries and marshmallows with CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!!

XDD I’m a chocoholic. I even had a hot chocolate with marshmallows. Yum.

JJ had this amazing oreo pancake stack with chocolate ice-cream plus chocolate sauce and maple syrup. She said it was better than she expected.

I had an anaconda next to me (just kidding) who hugged me like I’m a prey and squeeze me half to death.

Lol. It was the only chance he hugged me today…:( I was really happy because he hasn’t been holding me for ages and he brings warmth and confidence in our love to me all over again. :)

Then we went to the cinema before realizing my mom was waiting at Borders because she didn’t know the way to the cinema. O.O

When we found her she was really angry and scolded me in front of my best friend and my boyfriend. Think how embarrassing it is.

In English as well. ==

So I became really angry and walked really fast ahead. When we reached the cinema my mom dropped a bombshell and told me and JJ to sit together. WTF.

We ended up with Mom and DL in front and me and JJ behind. Movie was nice but I missed DL entirely. I played with his hair and he reached back to hold my hand so it made up for the distance…:) at least he did laugh at the movie. It was really nice to hear him laugh…

After the movie we went out and JJ phoned her parents. We took several photos…where almost all of them DL look really scary (he didn’t smile) and the only one he did smile a bit I look bad. Wth…

Mom did talk to DL a bit, about his study and ambition. He told her he’s going for aircraft engineering?

He told me it’s just like mechanics…LOL. Mechanics don’t have to account for hundreds of deaths if something went wrong, you know.

I took DL to see Angry Bird plushies…wanna buy one for him but…Mom’s there so I can’t. >.<

I promised him one Angry Bird plushie. XD. (I’ll get it for you darling.)

All in all it’s a ruined day, but at least, AT LEAST I get DL with me, and JJ too. Haih.

Never get my hopes up…><

Till then,

Michelle Yuen Ai

So many happenings..

I’m sorry for abandoning and neglecting my blog for this long. As you can see I’m getting busier and busier. I never stopped writing this long before. And so many things happened…and I don’t think I have time to make each into a post. That would be really scary.

YE has already done our sales at QB. It was real fun and our stall was pretty and very busy-looking. I got the sales profits already, we’re average. But never mind. We’ll try more sales outside. Our goal is to aim 500% profit for each shareholder. If we really get that, I’ll get RM60! Think of the dress I can have. Maybe I’ll get aanother halter. I simply love halter dresses…it’s cooling, subtly sexy and I look better than in other necklines. Though for the full beauty effect I’ll have to go on contacts. If not it’ll just spoil the whole look. XD. Or maybe I’ll get myself some nice nail protector. I saw one in a shop, it’s great cuz it makes your nails look beautiful and protects them too.

Back to the topic. So…there’s exams coming too, but I can’t be bothered to think of them. Yawn. The mere mention of revision just makes me feel sleepy. You’re right, not much vitality for someone who wants 11A+ eh? Okay, that’s not my aim, that’s from everyone who knows me. =.=

Oh ya, I saw dissection for real for the first time! I wasn’t that scared since my hamsters keep on dying, and they’re using white mice so it’s the same. And I’ve seen dissection photos at FB from CHC people. So, no surprises, but I did feel bad. They (two) were so cute because of their brown stripes. Teacher poured too much chloroform on the cotton wool, so they died from that. Because when we saw the heart it was already not beating. They have kinda neat internal organs…everything so tiny. The heart is just a bit bigger than a red bean and the kidney is a red bean. Lol. The biggest is the liver. The ribs are kind of hard but easy to cutli. The worst part is GY wanted to measure the small intestine and she actually dragged it out into a long row. YUCKS.

Prefect Annual Lunch went smoothly…I wore the red dress with frills at the sleeves and black leggings, gold strapped heels, gold hairband, gold clutch, gold belt and gold bangle. Hahaha…yeah a lot of gold. I specially found gold stuff to go with my first-bought gold shoes. >.< Thanks a lot to darling for getting the gold clutch to me. I only bought it about a few days before the day at an online store. Yeah, last minute. Thank God the shop was kind enough to post it out before I got the full amount to them, and DL for getting the bag for me, even though it was difficult for him. Love you darling.

Hmm..what else? I’m juruaudit in the prefectorial board. Hmm…the lowest in AJK list but at least I get on that list. Don’t forget that there are around 80 Form4 and Form3…and only limited posts. >.<. I was thinking maybe I’d have been a group leader or some higher up penolong if I’d been there since Form1, but I would never have wanted it. If I’m there since F1, I’d never have met DL. And I wouldn’t have all those memories.

Speaking of DL…he got into real trouble these days. Started with him being colder than usual, more distant than usual. He told me he was busy, was arguing with people, no mood…blah. I tried to comfort him. I waited for him night and day. Then one day he suddenly accused me of liking Lem, blah blah. Wtf…>.< I wasn’t. But he wouldn’t believe me. He even accused me of telling WY his secret stuff. Our secrets. But I never spoke to her since a long time. T.T…

I confronted WY…she told me about DL cheating on me. On me?? Then DL and I argued…because if there are people noticing then it means he’s so obvious…T.T…he keeps on telling me he loves me and he didn’t like her…then I wanted him to prove that…I specifically asked him to stop caring about her…but he hurt me over and over…he promised…but he hurt me and broke his promises…and then he told me all kinds of reasons of excuses…

It really hurt me. Amazing how it still hurts even after millions of times of being hurt. I should’ve felt nothing right?

JJ says I’m love-sick. I guess I am. She says it’s stupid to suffer like this…for a person who didn’t love me back that much.

Yeah, I’m stupid. For not being able to protect myself. I’m a goner. I used to be able to protect myself. Then I trusted him to protect me. But he didn’t…he hurt me. And now I’ve lost the ability to protect myself. Oh…God. Please give me strength…

I’m giving him a chance. If he doesn’t appreciate it…fine. I’ll leave and he can get her. But if he still cares…he’ll try to get my heart back. Sometimes I feel so PATHETIC. Why the hell do I feel so stupid?? I know I should have the courage to stop talking to him, just leave him for days and days until I feel better. But I didn’t. I know I’m pathetic for loving him this much. Maybe it’s too much…but I love him…

I really do.

And I’ll sacrifice everything for him.

Dear God..please save our relationship ok? I don’t wanna be in a bad relationship…but I don’t wanna let him go too…T.T

Till then,

Michelle Yuen Ai