Trainee as a prefect~

Lol. . .

Going crazily and madly insane....

Never thought I would like to walk round and round the same place...lolz okay it's much better than standing stock still at a place.

Haiz...and then first day is kinda shitty because i duty 3 places a day...== duty 1 is at the gate...duty 2 at another gate...duty 3 along f3 corridor...

O~o bully...>.<

Today is 2nd day...went 2 school 15 mins early (7am) to duty...nowadays i go school 7.15 d haha...>< last time at CHC it was 6.50am...

Duty staircase gate (7am), duty main gate (7.15-7.30), that was actually 2 duties...earlier one is to mengawasi d students, later one is to copy late names...duty canteen (7.30-7.40) wheee...get to smell d nuggets...hahax. That one is to make sure no one is at canteen already and make sure no one doing dirty thing in toilet...(18 above d)

Recess...duty canteen again...wtf the sejarah teacher doesn't let us go down 2 eat early...T.T so i just 2 bites swallow 2 nuggets n run...>< zz...and dutying canteen is so horrible because i can only look at the food and cry...hahax. jkjk. that duty is 2 make sure no one take food out of canteen compound...and no one leave the plate on table...coz we don't have LPKS.

Best thing is i get to be serious and look like super stern (kexi d la)...worst thing is I have a seriously terrible looking trainee tag...WTF!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry about my name...I hid it. Privacy purposes. It's a horrible tag. T.T

Look at that! Thank God it's only temporary.

Best thing about senior is get to wear senior uniform, worst thing is they don't have names on their tags!!! only AJK have...T.T

And tomorrow is my last day as trainee and i'm getting my trainee results! If all goes well...i'll buy my senior uniform during CNY holidays!!!!!!!

Wheeeeeeeeeee! Pray for me guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I here or there?

Can anyone tell me? I am so confused...

I miss my old school and friends soooo much~ here there are no one who I can absolutely confide in~

I share happiness with the friends here...but I just can't share my sadness with them...and there are stuff they wouldn't even REALLY understand...HAIZ!

True friends are easier to find when compared to friends who can talk heart-to-heart with me...

Because true friends are all about treating each other right...while friends who can have heart-to-heart talks are those you trust completely in~and who have almost the same interests...not necessarily personality but who can accept each other's differences and try to accomodate...

Haiz!

I have friends here now, of course...I'm not THAT horrible at making friends yet...I have a few true friends whom I can trust...and MAYBE (less than one month so haven't really known) a friend who is alike with me in more ways than others~ But I couldn't find any H-T-H (Heart to heart) friends here...at least, none whom I can rely and trust on 100% without fail...

JJ used to be my best friend at that and we still send each other updates...but there's no one here who could be like her...T.T

And did I mention the school canteen SUCKS??? OMG...I'll lose weight again because it's so horrible...>< I can't stand the FOOD!!! The names (spaghetti, wantan mee, tomyam mee, etc) are ONLY names!!! The spaghetti is like short short yellow noodles with watery tomato sauce and a few pieces of sausages. The wantan mee is yellow noodles with soya sauce. The tomyam mee is noodles with spicy soup which tastes STRANGE. O.O????????

I miss CHC canteen!!!! I miss the food there so much. When you're spoilt for choices, you tend to forget how lucky you are. I used to moan that the food is the same every other day. But when you compare to SHHS food...suddenly the Tomyam Mee, Laksa, Curry Mee, Lam Mee, Porridge, Hokkien Mee, Loh Mee, Wantan Mee and Jawa Mee seems SOOO delicious~

Not to mention the economy rice stall with a variety of yummy dishes as well as RM1 for 3 nuggets, bread stall (with all the Dim Sums) and drinks stall [with over 10 types of ready-made drinks (the one filled a little with some juice and then add lots of ice) and 3 types of juices (apple, orange, carrot) and conventional can drinks and mineral water]

I can't believe the 3 nuggets here are selling for RM2!!! Cut-throat...

Haiz! And WY called me last night~and filled me in on stuff from CHC...like how YH got to represent Penang to go KL for Olympiad Maths Competition~he's really a maths genius~

And more and more stuff! So am I here, or am I there instead???

Prefect Interview

Hmm...yeah I actually went to be a prefect...which is SO unlikely eh?


I suppose you'll wanna know ALL about my interview...
But it's SOO embarrasingly hilarious+"wtf"
That you'll be better off NOT knowing.


Blek~~~

Okay I'll tell you...but promise me don't laugh k???

Haha...don't LAUGH...

>><< Okay after recess I went to 5T2 to have the interview...there are a row of chairs outside...some students form3 d already there. They were so NOT serious and playing around that I wonder how the hell they could be serious and responsible? They resemble more like hyperactive monkeys...

So I sit there feeling shit that I'm same taraf with them...quiet...really quiet....the seniors went in and out of the room and looking really serious...=.= they love making us wait and nervous....

Then finally after a really LOOOOOOOOOOONG wait the door opened and they called me...

First person. :D

Happy because I don't have to wait any longer....

Went inside. 

Say good morning.

Sit down.

"Tell us about yourself"

(Huh? I thought you have all the info you want???)

"Ever been a prefect?"

(No..because very ma fan...)

"So now why wanna be prefect?"

(Because I'm here...lol...)

"So what does team spirit mean to you?"

(Being a team lor...what else...><)

"If there's bad students will you have the courage to scold them?"

(Does arguing and ending in a fight counts?)

"If your group leader give you wrong arahan what will you do?"

(Complain to head prefect!!)

"What if students say bad stuff about being a prefect in front of you?"

(Doesn't matter...as long not saying about me specifically...)

Hahaha. Of course I didn't give the answers above. Even though I wanted to....

I'm not posting up my actual answers...they're too embarrassing. I still cringe everytime I think about them...

Stand up. 

Say thank you.

Go out.

OMG...I've never ever ever ever EVER EVER...been so polite in my life. Ewwww....

There were 5 of them prefects...no teacher. When I went back to class everyone looked at me. O.O

Tomorrow they will tell me if I get to be trainee...

Just ignore the brain..XD

Pray pray pray!!!

My Ko-K Timetable~

This is only the Ko-k Head Teacher’s suggestion (I think so) for the clubs, I don’t know for sure yet:

Monday—English Society (and Reds practice)

Tuesday—Library

Wednesday—NONE FOR ME

Thursday—Young Enterprise (YE) Club

Friday—Prefect

Saturday—Leo Club, Girl Guides and Sport Clubs in alternate weekends.

Sunday—None but expect to do REVISION…

Arrrgh. And by the way, BM tuition Tuesday 4pm—6pm. O.O. Meaning after school 1.45pm, I go Library 2-4pm, then straight head for tuition??? T.T…how to finish homework??? And where’s my daily weekday afternoon sleep???

HAIZ…

Seems like Wednesday is the only day I can lie back and do my homework early and get SLEEP. Because the rest of the days I’ll come home 4pm so how to sleep and do homework at the same time LEH??

Oh, what a life.

Please don’t say that nowadays us young people have it easy ok? Yes we may not do as many house chores as you do in the past, but we DO do the chores AND we have to study (expected to get straight A+) AND go for ko-k activities (expected to shine in them and get MARKS) AND go for tuitions (expected to boost our academic excellence when all we WANT and seriously NEED is sleep) AND worry about pimples (and for unfortunate people, ACNE) to start exploding all over the face…T.T AND worry about how we look and if our social status is suffering AND resisting the urge to just SLEEP or go Internet or play games in the MIDDLE OF A WHOLE LOAD OF WORK.

And stop counting how many ANDS there are.

Till then,

Welcome to YE!

Yay I joined YE!! It’s a really nice club which JJ has been yearning to join. *grins*

It’s okay JJ…CHC doesn’t have, but my school do, so I’ll fill you in on everything we’ve done so you can take part too!!! 

Well…I’m wondering how to start this first entry. Now it’s March, but I better start from January on so that everything will be in order.

It was on a sunny afternoon that I was made a Sales Director. Actually I volunteered it myself. I know, stupid me somehow. But since teacher asked, so I answered. Haha…

To tell you the absolute truth I didn’t want to be SD. My dream was to attain the glorious MD (Managing Director) role. But MD was chosen by teachers and since it was my first year actually getting to know the school and all, I wasn’t made MD.

Teacher gave us a talk about what is YE all about. I’m listening with all ears. She showed us some product ideas that we can make. Some are good, others are just tacky. And she told us last year they made 400% profit, which was good I think, before I realized CGL made 1500% and PCGHS made 1200%. Now I’m speechless.

Teacher said we will aim to win the YE Challenge trophy this year. It’s the overall challenge trophy and the most revered and sought after prize in the winning part of YE. Cool. CGL won it last year and they got to go HongKong for 4 or 5 days to meet YE representatives from the whole Asia Pacific. That’s so cool!!

 We won fourth in Best Report last year. Blekksss that’s so bad. There are some main prizes like Best Product and Best Report too. I’m aiming for those as well.

We have three teachers: Cik Selina Ooi, Cikgu Jamilah, Cikgu Che Zahrah.

I don’t know how many members we have. Quite few. The maximum is 25, but we’re far less. >.<

Anyway, with YE, I hope this year I can achieve more success!!

Form 4 activities…

Nowadays Form 4s have SO MANY activities that is SO burdening. >.< And we’re expected to do well in ALL of them because there’s marks involved, which is important for university time, so bla bla bla and bla…

If you still don’t get me, let me tell you MY weekly activities. =.=

Okay so I ADMIT first of all I’m not those super super amazing people who can have a WHOLE BUNCH of activities EVERY DAY from morning until night WITHOUT REST and still be really bubbly and full of life every day. They have a list of ko-k activities, tuition for almost every subject and super active in class and so on. As well as being a good child in home and do lots of household chores.

I salute them but I am NOT THEM. Sorry.

I have a good brain which listens to me when I ask it to work, but it goes hysterical when I don’t let it rest. And you really don’t want to see my brain go out of control. Because your brain will then do the same too.

In short, I NEED my rest. Ideas and inspirations come to me when I’m fully rested. They abandon me when I can’t BREATHE.

That’s right. I CANNOT BREATHE with too many activities.

Plenty of rest between each one, that’s what I want…

But that’s what I couldn’t get…

For five days EVERY WEEK I go to school…7 a.m. to 1.15 p.m., two days 1.45 p.m.

Normal, for a Form 4 student. Though I missed the days of 1.15 p.m. already BYE BYE!!! Lol. But it’s still breathable.

Anyway…this year I went crazy (is that the right definition of me?) and joined a WHOLE load of co-curricular activities for NO REASON. Okay in fact I have two reasons…lol.

One is because I want to get MARKS…(MY MARKS HORRIBLY LOW!!!)

Another is because I’m finally realizing my dreams…o.o yeah yeah it sounds dramatic but there it is.

First of all: these are the co-curricular activities I’m joining…after thinking very deeply about my ability to participate in all of them…

Prefect, Librarian, Girl guide, Young Enterprise Member, English Club Member…

Yeah I’m crazy. I didn’t state what’s for sports, but I think I’m going to join Red House…and………………………………………………………………

Refuse to go~~~

Hahaha…I’m going only ONCE. Then I’m outta there. 

It’s not that I don’t like sports. I like them. As in indoor sports that is. I’m getting all sweaty BECAUSE I keep running about, NOT because I’m standing under the sun. I can’t stand the sun too much. It kills me because it wrecks my skin besides making me feel hot and bothered. Unless I’m by the sea…which is a different story…

I like ping-pong and badminton and volleyball. Pity I’m never really good at any of them. I’ve never had actual training for any of them and I’m not joining the clubs because I’ll probably be the worst. And yes, I have a pride as big as an ostrich egg.

Big ostrich eggs

Back to my story.

I only went choir fully which is two days stay back, one tuition at night for 3 years. So, mind you, I’ve never had so much activities before.

And my mother wants me to GO for BM tuition AGAIN…at a friend’s house. Because her mother, according to MY mother (because I don’t know yet) is a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY (can I stress this enough?) GOOD teacher and I can’t get her as my school teacher because her daughter, is in my class. ZZZ how I wish I won’t have to go for ANY tuition...tuition is important, but then~I'm a lazy person lol.

HAIZ...but I'm not sure about the times so I'll tell later~

Sorry for a long post today...it's a boring day~

Till then,

Back to CHC! Choir deteriorates~

First time going back to school after changing to a new school. They’re having Co-curricular Club and Society Registration Day. Heartache…

What’s even more heartache is the deteriorating state of CHC choir…

I wonder why nobody wants to join? Because they’re too shy to sing? Maybe they feel that Chinese Orchestra or Band is more interesting. And the instruments become their voices. They don’t have to open their mouths and risk embarrassing themselves. That’s what is bugging them.

Went back to CHC arriving 8.40 something in the morning. Met DL, and then we went in search of JJ. Curious how everyone suddenly notices me after me being gone for a week. When you’re there all the time, all year, they don’t even stop to say hi.

This year I didn’t speak to any Form 1 at all to get them to join. Just walk around and checking out the new extension building. Looks very new. Some of the classes are used for Form6 (last time the Lower 6 students used to be nomads and study at whatever places available. Examples will be any laboratories and any classes. No proper classes). While other rooms are empty. The rooms are kind of smaller than original building classes. Land is scarce in CHC. The next step would be building something in the field. Lolz…

Saw V at the Science & Maths Club place. Didn’t recognize him at first. I only realized after walking past him. O.O

Did a performance for choir at the foyer. We sang a medley of Mamma Mia songs. Kinda self-conscious lol. But it beats having to sit in class in total silence~~~

Those Form 3s are REALLY getting on my nerves. I remember very clearly when we were Form 3 we went around asking people to join. These people just stand there and chat non-stop and look around hesitatingly and are MORE SHY than the Form 1 themselves. =.=

And they couldn’t SING Mamma Mia because they didn’t go last year’s camp. So what they COULD do is to ask people to join while WE are singing. But no! Some Form 1s walk past, stop to stare and NOBODY explain to them who are this group of people singing. Like they don’t know us and we’re singing because we feel SYOK.

Really heart-attack.

So MANY of choir members DON’T realize and/or DON’T care about the falling of choir. Some of us love choir so much we try our best to support it and find the next forms to support it as well. But this year Form 4 is the last batch of interested members. After us Choir will die. We’re hoping Form 3 will support it, but how long can they do it? Form 2 members are extinct, and so far I’ve seen less than 10 Form 1 members. And most of them leave after seeing that no friends are there.

And when choir falls, our GREAT headmaster will laugh and say “see? I told you. You’re all NOTHING.”

In my year almost every 1A and 1B students join choir because the choir teacher is our English teacher. She encouraged us to join choir and we joined so as not to let her down. Some of us left after the first year, but many stayed because we grew to like choir. She even supported choir by being there on the Registration Day and pull in Form 1 students and their parents.

But now she left choir, so what can we do? She pulls in people so that choir will still stay strong and plentiful members. And then she finds and organizes activities together with our choir instructor and deals with the headmaster and makes him agree to let us join the various activities.

Haiz. Luckily I’ll not be there to see the DOWNFALL of CHC choir.

Till then,

B.O.R.E

Everything is SO BORING.

I’m SO desperate until I start to read the first chapter of Form 4 Bahasa Melayu NOVEL. See how wretched I am??

Ya go on. Say it. Poor me. T.T…

No Internet for weeeeeeeeeeeeeks. I’m DYING.

No Facebook for WEEKS.

No Blog for weeks.

No nothing.

Poor me.

Haiz.

No.

I

Am

So

Very

Dead.

Till then,

3rd day of boring schoolday

It’s so boring I can eat myself. My classmate asked me why am I so QUIET in class on facebook, and I was like “planning how to jump so that I can die and not just break my legs…><”

Okay so it isn’t true but that’s what I’m feeling for the past few days. Ever since 29th when I had my last choir performance. (I dreamt about it for a couple of times…><) It worsens after I went to my new school…

I HATE CHANGE!!

Cried for two days straight, A LOT. Almost every hour, and when I do, the crying goes on for more than 20minutes. Now I don’t really cry anymore, but I think I'm going to change again. Something like ice…cold, reserved. More difficult to get to know, like in the past. I don’t know why exactly…but when change is forced upon me, I change too.

2years ago I was like this, difficult to get acquainted to people and seem very shy. I had always been like this. But when I knew people well I usually warm up to them and go on to become good friends. Then in secondary school I decided to put the past behaviour behind me. I realized I had grown up, and being shy wasn’t going to help me in any way.

So I improved on my social skills. I became easy to get along with, friendly and sociable with people, and even made lots of friends, in different classes of the same form and even had some friends of different forms. Anyone who knew me during that time would never connect me with shyness. I was the opposite of it, declaring my views and opinions without being prompted.

I was the most outgoing in these 2years. And I thought I could last well till Form 5. I had a load of friends, and I’m not afraid of people anymore. How much better could things be??

And then suddenly I get CHANGED to a school where I know nothing of and had nothing. I LOSE everything there. My status, my friends, my co-curriculum, and most of all, my confidence. I am not prepared to build things up from scratch again.

I felt like it was so useless to have better people skills and have friends all over the school only to be changed from it when things just look really good to me. I’m fed up about it. What’s the point of making friends when you can’t stay with them for long? When you keep on changing schools until nobody really remembers you?

Is 5 years at the same school and 2/3 years at two different schools the same? No. People will forget you if you don’t stay with them very long. And I don’t need friends at every school in Penang, I just need friends to really remember me because I was one of their longest friends you know?

For now, I’m deciding on being INACTIVE. Until I know what everything is going on. I’ve been quite active in class for so many years, this is the first time I’m keeping quiet and minding my own business. To say the truth, I’m not made for being silent. But what to do? I don’t have the energy to run around the class talking anymore.

Depression SETS IN.

So I’m going to have a new motto:

Talking extra less, studying extra more, and aiming for SPM in the loooong run. No more chatting in class while the teacher is teaching! No more of the 8 crazy mottos for me! >.<

And friends, well, let the whole thing run its course. I’m tired of trying extra hard to be friends with everyone. Especially when part of them who knew me pretended not to know me. Kui us being friends and classmates for so long. Given up on this whole thing.

I’ll carefully preserve the few best friends I have, be friendly to the other friends I have, be nice to acquaintances and as for people I don’t know, well, let them decide whether to talk to me or not.

Till then,

Second Day of New-ness

Had my first ever assembly at new school. There is one very unhappy part about it—why do we have to stand??? We had it at the basketball courts, and it was completely dry. Why can’t we sit down??? >.<

I really didn’t mean to compare but I was thinking why CHC students are allowed to sit. I mean, there’s no real difference. Does standing really show any respect? I don’t know about other schools, but in my old school, students were allowed to sit (and still are) while assembly. If the ground is wet on that day, then the prefects will try to dry it with newspapers.

Although sitting down on the ground has its bad points too, one very obvious one being your legs hurt and the blood cannot circulate after being in a folded position for a long time.

But standing causes students (at least me) to get restless and one girl even fainted on the first assembly. O.O. Nobody faints while sitting, at least after 3years of observation. Last time CHC had a case of a prefect fainting and almost falling into the drain, but that was because she was standing.

And did I mention I really hate the tables in class? The big reason: There is NO drawer!!!!!!!!!!! ZZZ. I’ve been so used to drawers that I always put my stuff inside so that I have ample space on the table itself. Not to mention rubbish too, but I seriously miss a drawer. T.T…fellow CHC students…do NOT complain your tables are TOO small any longer!

Another strange thing I found in my new school is the way everyone thinks. They have a very…how do you say…different perspective and mind compared to students in city schools. Because from here to the main city of Penang is quite a long way, people who stay here tend to coop up in here and seldom make their way down to the more urban areas. Which means that they still have the kind of quality, the kind of pureness lost in city students.

It’s true. When I first went to a city school after being at a suburban school for 4years, I was shocked to find city students minds being VERY complex. They mature much faster, and they are more exposed to more things like technology, online games and things available in this era. And now after being in the city for 5years and return to a suburban school I just find the students’ childishness WEIRD.

I mean, things that are common in the city would make those students feel self-conscious. And things that they SAY in the city would shock those students immensely. I don’t know, but in city terms, the minds of suburban students would be classified together with Primary Standard 5 or 6 students in the city.

Of course there are some students in my class who are more matured and know more things, and even if they don’t say it you can see that they have an air of maturity about them.

That is the difference of my old and new schools…and I kinda miss my friends who can talk about anything under the sun…and also the boys who can make jokes out of any topic and we’ll go lol and definitely NOT giggling self-consciously…

Till then,

Happy 2011 New Year!

Happy 2011 everyone~

2010 over already..T.T missing DL and everyone at CHC so much...

This year gotta go NEW SCHOOL...

Haiz...

Not so sure it's gonna be a happy new year for me...

Good luck this year all...plus me!

Till then,