最美丽的奇迹~

我爱你。。。我真的爱你。。。是你让我体会到满满的幸福，让我能够有个实际的未来目标，让我认清自己，爱我自己多一点，只因 你爱我。

几天没了你的身影，少了你的陪伴，我才恍然了解到，你对我是多么的重要。每天的见面和100%不离不弃的保证是我渐渐以为你对我好是理所当 然，使到我们之间的感情变得很淡很淡~

其实你不是，因为你是我生命中。。。

最美丽的奇迹

或许我这样说，我这样爱你，你会觉得我不是你想象中的特别。或许如果我说，我喜欢你的机会是很渺茫的，是你莫大的荣幸，或许如果我当初没有 马上答应接受你，或许如果我没有把你加入我的未来，你会对我更积极，更投入。但我不能这样说，这样做，因为我心里说，你是我的奇迹。

我从没想过会遇见你，认识你，甚至爱上你，因为我一直认为，以我这样的女生，这样的个性，必须自寻幸福，因为幸福从不会自动过来的。因此， 我虽期望被人追，但也知道不实际，就算有，也从来不是我梦中的类型，所以我从来不等。

其实你也起初不是我的类型，只要你认识我喜欢过的男生，你会发现，长短处，你们都属于南北两极。但我爱上你显然的诚恳，虽然起初只是少许的 好感，但凭我直觉，我相信，你是不会辜负我的。

被你追的过程，也不算浪漫，因为你不大懂浪漫。但你天真的眼神，及甜甜的笑 容，以足够形成隐约的情意。 很开心遇见你，虽然和你在一起，苦的居多，但苦中带甜，我会撑下去的。

林钰栋，你是我最美丽 的奇迹！^^

9 months ler...^^happy anniversary^^

9 months already...happy 9 month...^^

Dis month although didn't think of want break (i never think dao 4 this month) but we keep on argue...

Sorry hurt dao u...n didn't try to understand u...but u keep on forgive me...that's why we got 2day d 9 months...thx..^^

Hormonal imbalance...sorry hehex. Im so sry...

May...already want exams le...jyjy la DL n me...hope can get 1st...^.^

Very sien with studying lo....but want a better future...cannot stop study right...haizx.

:) Happy anniversary 2 us! ^^

如果我变成回忆~你会怎样？ Mood drop~

 如果我变成回忆

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越 美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我 变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅 行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没 机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我 的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记

(Lots of shortforms, sorry!!!)
 
These days keep listening 2 dis song...dunno y...jz feel down...haiz....

Feel very sad and very unhappy and oversensitive...

He's nt online now...

Guess I'll pei myself...

Every day,

Feel so lonely..

I had 2 study 9 hrs since 11am

Jz 2 b online nw...

Jz 2 talk 2 him..

Jz 2 pei him..

N he nw off..

I din 怪 him..

Bt i feel so lonely..

Dunno y...

Even though everyday still say i love you

N everyday still smile n b caring

I have a strange feeling

Dat everyday seems lyk d last day...

Dat our relationship lyk deteriorating...

Into nth...

Sometimes i jz find fault with him...

sometimes i jz cnt control n let out all my feelings...

I dunno y i do dat...

I still love him...bt i still hurt him...

Is this unfair 2 him?

These days i cry very easily...

N feel very 无助...

Is this normal?

Does everything end jz lyk dis?

I always take 4 granted everythg dat he does 4 me...

He's 2 perfect dat i 4gt d reality of life...

I am so 幸福 is only bcoz he loves me..

If he doesn't

He wouldn't even give a damn abt me...

If he doesn't 

He wouldn't even care even if i love him 

I forget that.

Im nt vry happy these days...

Filled with loneliness and sadness
My parents especially my dad starts 2 leave me alone
When he wn c movie or wat
He never invite me anymore
Jz c by himself or pei my mom
I feel so alone...
Lyk i don't belong in my family anymore
I used 2 comfort myself of d fact dat i still have me
Vry lol bt it works
Den since i have DL...i start 2 think of him
N everytime anyone leaves me out of any activity
I'll just smile at his photo, touch his face n say 2 myself
I still have my bf
Who loves me unconditionally and will wn 2 do everythg with me
N i mean a lot 2 him
N nth is nice without me
N im nt just a responsibility.


Mayb im a responsibility 2 my parents
Although dey choose 2 hv me
Bt dey din choose my personality
So dey cn hate my personality
Dey cn dislike me 
Dey cn leave me out of every nice thg..
Bt dey are still responsible 4 me


Bt DL...he cn choose 2 love me or nt
Bcoz its nt his responsibility
He is loving me as myself n nt bcoz its a 负担
N im nt alone anymore in my world......
Bcoz i have someone who really loves me and no one cn say he HAS to love me...
He doesn't HAVE TO...he CHOOSES to...
Thx...

I don't want him 2 leave me

Bt i keep pushing him away n away...

So far away...

I dunno y im doing dis...mayb coz im afraid we're 2 close

If we're 2 close...

I'll start 2 treat him as a fren...
Im grateful 4 him...really...bt...I have these confused feelings...vry difficult feelings...

Why is love so difficult? 

Why is everything going the wrong way?

Why can feelings change...even when d heart doesn't change?

Why does everythg goes against us...

Even ourselves?

I don't know what 2 do...

It hurts...

And yet...

If he dies...I'll nvr b able 2 get over him...

N I'll cry until...

Mayb datz hw im gonna b blind?

Love is so irrational..

Love is so uncontrollable..

Im sry 4 everythg DL...

Im jz a girl...im jz an inexperienced girl...

Im jz a normal girl 

Im jz...

I can't do anythg much...i can't do anythg big...

Im sry if i cnt give u d happiness u want..

I can only give so much...

Cn only love so much...

Not mor n not less...

N i cnt do much dat u wn...

Mayb im wrong 4 accepting u

4 making u hvaving 2 承受my moods...

4 having u 2 love me even when im nt wat u wn..

Pls forgive me

I love you